Strength in hard times

Today was a tough day, it is taking all my strength to not let it own me and break me. I just will never understand all the adversity we have to go through, the good moments are great but are they really enough to sustain us through the rough times. I want to be strong and come out on the other side better for having survived hard times but I honestly want to know how many hard times do we have to have? It's not like I think that no one else has difficulties, I know we are going through this with different challenges. I particularly detest when someone tells me that we are not given more than we can handle, enough already. I love quotes and sayings but not that one, it just ticks me off beyond belief. Every time I think, there... I made it through that one... along comes a bigger adversity. Where is the justice in that? How about the rewards for getting through and not just surviving? I sound like the pessimist and really that is not me, I am the eternal optimist, I really believe that there are great things waiting for us after all this crap is over, it's just so hard to stay focused when you are going through the mess. A little break from the seemingly never ending downward slope would be great for me;)

I am blessed, I know this or I would not be where I am in my life and have the family and friends that I have but it always seems to exclude the love that I have always wanted. Whenever I think I should just give up and move on, I somehow get roped back in... I just don't want to end up like some women that I know that settle for being alone. I don't truly see them as happy, it's not that being alone is so bad, it's just that being with someone you love is SO much better;)