Calm Anticipation

I am not even sure I want to write, I just felt like there was something I wanted to say. Usually I have a complete thought that I build on but today, I just felt like writing.

I am all jumpy inside, trying to calm myself down, I am loving all the energy I have today. When I wrote out my list of housework, normally I would be freaking out and overwhelmed with the list but today I feel different, I can't wait to get it all completed, it will be nice to have it accomplished. It has been so nice for me to be working on organizing myself, I feel calmer.

Work is going better, I made it to tier two and never ever would have believed that would happen but I did and I am actually doing well at it.  I can see me getting better and better each day, I am enjoying the challenges much more.  I am looking forward to learning more each day.

My oldest Andrea is due to have her baby Jackson Lukka, This is both an exciting and scary time for her and Paul, They are going to be amazing parents since they are amazing people. I love them both and I love Jackson and he isn't even born yet but he's a part of them, so I love him.

Valentina is to doing great, she graded to grade 3 French Immersion, I am so proud of her, she will be bilingual and it will open so many more doors for her. So, no matter how tough it is, I am going to encourage her and get her tutors if needed to keep her there, I want the best for her, she is an amazing little girl who will be and amazing woman just like her sister.

Anyhow, I guess I did have things to say.  I feel like I am bursting inside with so much excitement, I can barely handle it.  So many good things on the way, life is good and only getting better.  I am glad that I never stopped believing that life would or could be better and sometimes we get what we want. It feels great to have my voice back, meaning saying what I feel and not being afraid.

I am a survivor and not a victim, I will not allow the past to define me, I am not my past.  People can change and be better, that is what life is all about, change. Well, time to get working, I want to have a little relax time tonight.