Happiness In Freedom

Why is it when a person is happy that people think that it's not real?  Is it because people can't believe others are just happy because... I have no one reason why I'm happy, there are many reasons.   I tend to smile and laugh a lot....  no, it's not easy but it is better than the alternative.  I try to see the best side, life gives us enough bad things, why shouldn't I look for the best whenever possible?

I admit that in the past I was not always positive and happy but I wanted to change that, I am blessed and extremely grateful for all that I have.  I have two amazing daughters, wonderful sisters, many great friends, my church, my career and David, my soul mate.   How could I not be happy?  That would not be gratitude.

Don't get me wrong, we all have bad days, that is a part of life but those days do not have to define us.  No one and I mean no one defines my happiness, I wake up each morning and I make a decision to be happy and grateful.  When things don't go the way I think it should, I am learning to handle that even better because it is so true that I don't always know what is best for me, I've had to remember there are greater forces working out there. 

There were times that I did fake being happy in the beginning of my change but it honestly didn't last long.  I feel  lucky to be where I am in my life, I have overcome numerous challenges, many things that could have taken most people down.  I didn't just survive, I thrived... I overcame my ex stepmother Ruth who did her best to make me feel like I was worthless.  I also overcame my ex husbands abuse, emotional, physical and sexual, I am free of him, free to live my life the way I want to, he's not.  How could I not be happy that I am free? Anyone that felt trapped and held back will know exactly what I mean. 

Being free is what makes me happy, freedom brings a peace like nothing else can.