What I Deserve

 Last night I took an online seminar.  One of the questions that was asked of us was that we should write a list of what we are looking for in a mate.

I have used this method to get a job, the one I currently hold.  My list was that I made no less then a certain amount of money, it could not be more than an hour in traveling on the bus, it had to be Monday to Friday and I wanted 9-5.  The job I have now, paid more than what I had on the list, it was Monday to Friday, it takes about 45 minutes to an hour to get to work on a bus and it was 10:00-6:00.  It is now 9:30-5:30. 

I also used it for my apartment, I didn't have a desire for a gorgeous place to live, I needed something I could feel comfortable in, I wanted something centrally located, hard wood floors, bottom level, no one under me, a front and back door with a yard and I wanted it all for $650.00 per month.  I got this place I am living in now, it has everything I wanted, only the rent was $675.00.  I couldn't turn that down.

Now, I need to make a list of what I am looking for in a mate. I want them to be kind, funny, considerate, a great kisser, someone who loves to snuggle, he holds a good job [if I do, he has to:)], gentle, loving, he has to make me feel butterflies, he has to be my best friend, I have to feel safe with him, I want him to be my soul mate, I want someone who is adventurous, who wants to travel and do things they may never have thought they would ever do.  I want him to love only me.

I know this is a long list, but I deserve the best, I am willing to give my best to be able to have him as my soul mate.   I don't expect perfection as I am NOT perfect.  I have already found him, he is perfect for me, he gets how quirky I am.  Just one thing is missing, he doesn't love just me.  That's a huge thing but he is honest about it. 

Right now, I am not ready to move on but I am going to take this time to work on me, physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I want to be the best me that I can be when the time is right for me to have my soul mate in my life.  I don't feel that it will be a long way off. 

Things are changing quickly and I know I'm on the right path.  I just have to be patient and I have to do what I need to, to be ready when he is ready for me. The time will be right, I believe.