My Potential Is More Than I Know

I have had an interesting/dull day, I woke up at five am and worked on my CPA assignment for over two hours.  This course is so much more boring than I ever thought possible...  I am at the point of who cares.  I cannot see myself doing this as a career, trying to figure out which taxable, non taxable car allowance the employee is supposed to have.  I like the job I have now as it is helping people and I don't need to know boring legislation.

I completed the assignment in a little over two hours, of course I did spend a couple of hours last night researching in too... can I say dull.  I am thinking it would be more fun to watch paint dry, lol.  There is one more of these courses that I have to take, I am seriously wondering why I am torturing myself.

Anyhow, I then slept for an hour until Cindy arrived here, I had her look over my assignment, then I sent it.  I read a ton of blogs, there are so many talented and uplifting people throughout this world, I love getting to know other people in the world through their blogs. I am always pleasantly surprised how much we are alike and yet culturally different, I have so much desire to travel and see the many types of cultures out there.  There is so much beauty in this world and I want to experience it all.

Then I wasted the rest of my day away until I picked Valentina up, did laundry and then dishes... woo hoo... Finally, I got to settle down and talk to my David.  I had been kind of weepy today... I had no real idea why.  I mean I have good things going on in my life, I couldn't figure out why I was weepy and reflective, I still haven't figured it out.  At least David and I chatted and he made me laugh as usual.  He can certainly lift my spirits easily, how did I not always have him in my life?  If I just had not been so darn shy when I was younger.

I don't have the time or energy to be shy any longer, it seriously is such a waste of time. I missed out on some very wonderful experiences in my life because of how shy I used to be.  I had been thinking about joining Toastmasters at work but then I realized I don't really need this as I can talk in large groups with no issues.  Not that I always could but as I get older I lose that fear more and more, now if I could just lose all my fears.  Then again, if I didn't have fear, I wouldn't be able to grow to my potential.

Fear is actually a good thing as long as we don't let it control us!  Fear can keep us safe and if it is irrational fear and we see this, we can embrace it and grow beyond our wildest dreams.  I have had some things happen to me today that most people would have fear about, I would have had fear about it in the past.  Today I just think, oh well... that is life, time to move on to my next stage.