*My ex Andrey called tonight to tell me that someone reads my blog and
then reports back to him. Well, I guess they have nothing better to
do. Andrey actually had the nerve to ask me what he ever did to me?
REALLY??? Does he have some sort of disease such as Alzheimer's? I
apologize if that offends anyone but if he needs reminders, the person
who reads my blog should just click on Andrey's name under the labels to the right and
also the rape label, then maybe they can remind him what he actually
did. Oh and as I explained to him, this is my personal blog and I will
always write the truth about what happened to me, even if he wants to
forget, I can forgive but I cannot forget April 13, 2008*
On another note, I had an interesting conversation last night, I'm looking into my options at work, I just cannot imagine that I would be taking calls from clients for the rest of my life. I love the clients and I'm grateful for my ability to connect with them so I can assist them. Here's the thing though, do I actually want to be sitting, with a headphone on and answering payroll questions for the rest of my life? I say the answer is NO, I want to do something more meaningful, something more uplifting.
So, I told the love of my life David that I was looking at my options. He told me not to burn bridges? I know it's important to have regular money coming in but I don't want a career for the sake of having a career. I won't live in fear, I was born for better, we all were. It depends on what we choose to believe! I'm not meant to be a cog for a company, I'm meant to express myself with openness and love. When David told me not to burn bridges, I told him one that I don't plan to live with fear and two I know he believes in me and my abilities. He then said, absolutely, he believes in me. I really believe in him too, he is capable of so much<3
I'm not like most people, I don't worry about money and where it's coming from. It's always there when I really need it. Case in point, Valentina is getting baptized tomorrow, I had no money until Friday the 15th but what happened? I won the last $50.00 gift certificate at work; see what I mean? Money always shows up, I never have to worry about it. I don't mean it falls from the sky, I do have to put out some effort but mostly I leave it in Heavenly Fathers hands and it all works out.
You can't take money with you when you pass on, this tells me it's not all that important. I just need enough to live on and when I make excess I can use it to help others. I'm not saying that I wouldn't want to make millions of dollars, just imagine how many people I could help, I could travel all over the world. I could meet many of the people whose blogs I read; I would love that.
Money is needed to live but it is not required for happiness... that may be an oxymoron to some people but it makes perfect sense to me.
My new motto which is a quote by Jack Canfield is going to be my new tag line in my blog. I've been looking for one that resonates with me, this one is positive and uplifting and exactly what I believe.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield
Perfect and everything is cool!! Yea.. money isn't source of our happiness...
ReplyDeleteThank you Sangay, So sweet of you to comment :)
DeleteHi Launna, and have to say about Andrew.. well, better that i dont say, but i´m proud of you! Really. This is your blog, and most of all, your life. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd please, trust your self about what you want to do! Its your heart telling you, what you were born to do.. i didnt know about noney, when i guit my day job and started to write... everything just falled to be ok! :))))
Hugs, Maarit
I do trust my heart Maarit, I just have to figure out a way to do it while I am working because I have Valentina. I will do what I am born to do though:) Thank you for you encouragement:)
DeleteI like your statement about "forgiven but not forgotten", Launna :)I am a kind of person like that, too. I wrote what I think, what I feel, and what happened to me.
ReplyDeleteI also 100% agree with you about money. Everything needs money, but money is not everything
Thank you for the comment Lizanovia.. I can be nothing less then myself:)
DeleteI finally had time to read the hole text! :)
ReplyDeleteSo, I think you should look for a job that makes you more happy and I can really understand waht you mean.
Later I want to do something, with what I can fascinate other people.
And I know that this will be hard, cause in the creative Jobs I mabye wanna work in, I will not earn much money. I just know that. But also I want to have enough money to live a good life, and for that I need Ambition, to reach my aims and to be good at my job, better than the others.
Again, thanks for all your lovely comments. ♥
Don't limit yourself, I am not limiting myself... if we are meant to be doing creative things, a way will be made to make money at it so we can live:)
DeleteThank you for posting:)
Uh, maybe I'm too influenced by the people around me. The all work & work & work, just to earn money.
DeleteAnd in school everybody says you need a good job, because without you don't earn money blah blah blah. :D
Thanks for your comment about my 90 Followers. You are really close to 100, that's right. :)
I am getting close, it's a nice mile stone... I never started this for the followers, I started this to work through my feelings of being raped... I am happy to have the followers though
DeleteYour ex has some nerve, huh? Some people just don't have common sense at all.
ReplyDeleteEverything above is so true and I admire you for your braveness in regards of money. But I must agree with David. You need to be wise for Valentina's sake. Once a woman becomes a mother she doesn't belong to herself and has a greater responsibility.
Hugs
Thank you Petro but I believe in myself, I know what I am supposed to do and yest I need to take care of Valentina but my Heavenly Father knows what I stand in need of:) I don't want to live with fear:)
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