Do you remember a time when you were really happy? You know a time where you smiled on the inside and out. It's been a long time for me. I have had some really happy moments lately but I haven't had that insane happiness. The ones I had with David through the two months of November and December in 2011. I had the most amazing holidays, I'll never forget how happy and wonderful it was. In my heart it's real <3
I love that you love me, I love that you are to there to catch me but most of all I love that you're my best friend.
I had a dream come true, my fairy tale love , my one and only. He's everything I've always wanted and now it's so hard that we are apart. Every other day I think I can't do this, I can't be only friends, I can't be without him. My emotions are on a roller coaster, I try so hard to keep myself together. I don't want to make it harder on him or on myself. I know that even if I do make it hard on him, he will be there for me no matter what. We are best friends, we are soul mates.
Yet if I really love him, I have to let him go. As painful as that will be, it is the right thing to do. Because I love him I want him to be happy, my love letter to you, even though I know I would/could make him insanely happy; he has to want that from me. No one on this earth or anywhere else will ever love him as much as I do. I am willing to let him go but we will always be best friends. Whenever I need him, he will be there and whenever he needs me, I will be there.
The truth is that no one knows what the future and the eternities hold, I have faith that everything will be as it should be.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield
Oh, Launna,life is so full of discouragement and pain. You are such an example of rare strength and sense of purpose and you manage to steer a path through the shoals and rocks that life hedges up. The Lord is so aware of us. He knows what we are going through and He is there. Ready. You are right. No one knows what the future holds. But the Lord does. And we know all things will work together for our best good. Thinking of you, my friend!
ReplyDeleteAwe, thank you Diane... I try so hard to see the good side to everything. Otherwise it could defeat me but I won't let it.
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ReplyDeleteNo matter what happens, life goes on. And I agree with you that no one knows what's in store for us in the future. Keep smiling, my friend! :-) By the way, I like the stars appearing next to my cursor. Haven't been working on my blog lately, but I'd like to have something like that. :-) Will try and see.
Hi Rhodora, I love the little stars but I had someone else go into my blog and add it... I just couldn't figure it out.
DeleteIn July, after my CPA exam, I am going to revamp my blog, I will need help, lol
However cliche it might sound, I really believe that everything happens for a reason. Maybe your true love is still waiting out there...maybe...It's really hard but it would be very good for you to keep your options open for anything Launa...
ReplyDeleteThank you Unikorna, my true love is David, I know that without a doubt. No matter what happens in the future, I know the truth. It will be okay either way, I love him enough to let him go♥
DeleteIt's so hard to let go the person one loves so much, I know I've always had this problem.
ReplyDeleteSurrounding yourself with positivism helps you to accomplish this terrible mission and I think you are doing really well, although I'm sure you think quite the opposite. Just by expressing your feelings is a huge step towards letting go.
Hugs, dear Launna
Thank you Petro, I have to express myself, bottling it up inside never helps me, I have tried it and it can only destroy me!
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