I need to make this post about what I'm truly grateful for, not that I'm not thankful for so much in my life but lately I don't find it as easy to just go to my gratitude list as I have in the past.
I realize I'm being selfish when my life is full of blessings. I have my two daughters, my son-in-law Paul, my grandson Jackson, my health, a home to live in, plenty of food, awesome friends, the gospel, my job, my blog, I live in a free country, I can see, I can hear, I can walk, I can talk, I'm funny, I'm friendly.
Sometimes I think it would be easier to erase the past then to deal with it but deep down I know that's not true; I wouldn't be me without my past. I guess I'm just having a tough time getting to that next level.
Can I ask you all to pray or send positive and uplifting thoughts for me. I do this everyday for the people that are in my life whether you are directly in my life or in my blog. I just really need to start seeing the good again and not just for a day.
I need to somehow learn to be happy again. I was happy, really happy, for a long time. I've found it so hard to be happy for more than day here and there lately. It's because I allowed my heart to be open and now it's in pain.
I think I need to take each day and pick something I'm grateful for and dwell on it, blog about it and be thankful for it. I want being happy to be a way of life, it was at one time, it can be again.
Mostly I've learned a very hard lesson, I will never open my heart again, I'm not looking for my best friend, I found him; I'm not looking for my soul mate, I found him; I'm not looking for the love of my life, I found him. Only to lose him.
I'm am grateful for the past, present and future.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield
yup
ReplyDeleteit's good to always be grateful of what we have
and appreciate them
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Yes it is, it is not always easy but it's important:)
DeleteDear Launna, it hurts me to read about your constant sadness. I know it's hard to see beauty in your life when you feel down, I have been through that myself many, many times, even recently with Ellie's sickness and the complications she had from medicine but we need to try for the sake of ourselves firstly and then our daughters'. I am sending you this link to one of my posts that serves as a reminder to me about how lucky I am to have the things I have in my life and how grateful I should be for those, especially Ellie. I use it every time I feel down and it works like magic.
ReplyDeletehttp://theseamanmom.blogspot.com/2012/04/wishing-for-better-world.html
I hope it will help you too.
Many hugs and kisses
Thank you Petro, I am very grateful for my two children and for each and every blessing I have in my life. I just have a broken heart when it comes to love... I don't see how it can change. The last time it was broke it took nearly 25 years to heal, this one was even deeper... I think I just need to forget about love and just live for other reasons as hard as it will be.
DeleteIt looks like a wise, optimistic decision to me :)
Deletexoxo
I don't know how optimistic that the decision is but since I only love and want David, it is the only decision I can make.
DeleteWhen I love someone, I love them forever... or at least until they destroy it. David is not like to destroy what I feel with him. He will never be as cold and mean as Tony was, and that took 25 years.
I hope you have a great day Petro.