"If I just breathe, every little piece of me, you'll see, everything is alright, if I just...breathe."
I've been laying in bed early, going back and forth in my mind trying to talk myself in to getting up so I could get all my housework done early but my body keeps saying sleep, it's your day off.
My body is strong willed but this time my mind will win out, I can see the blue sky from my window. It looks lovely, especially after the crazy weather we had yesterday. It started out sunny, then it got dark, rainy, then there was thunder and lightening, then hail. All just to get sunny again.
Interesting I must say, although this is Nova Scotia and the joke here is if you don't like the weather, just wait 5 minutes. Yesterday proved that theory correct.
I've been doing some deep thinking and making some decisions. Big one's, I just have to figure out how I'm going to make them happen. I also wonder how my decisions will impact others? Then I think, well... I have to be happy and this will make me happy.
All this back and forth, up and down will finally be decided. Ahh, I will finally be off the roller coaster; isn't that a good thing. I'm going to spend this summer with Valentina, she needs her mama to be there for her fully.
Sometimes just making a decision makes life easier, all the turmoil or indecision is really difficult to deal with. I feel like I've been holding my breath for months and now I can breathe. I forgot what it was like to breathe, I've been too tense for so long.
Time to get up, greet the day so that I can get all that I need done. I have so many things I NEED to get done, I want to get organized, this will really help in my decisions. I just need to simplify with the question; Will I need this in a year? Have I used this in a year? Either way it will have to go, that way I can clear the clutter.
Now just to make Valentina see it my way. She'd be happier if she could purge and make room for more important things in her life. Stuff never makes anyone happy, it never has.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield
Lovely and enchanting friend I wanted to let you know I nominated you for 2 blog awards :).
ReplyDeleteAwe, I just saw, thank you Unikorna... I really appreciate it:)
DeleteYay! I can post comments now!!! Just wanted to praise Valentina for being such a great, maure personality, even though she's just a little kid. She has so much strength and will power and positivism and I pray her to stay like this forever. She is a rock for her momma too :)
ReplyDeleteKisses to both and keep in touch, I am not giving up blogging just because I am not a stay at home mom anymore :)
Yes Valentina is wonderful and kind. She just needs to learn to throw stuff out, she doesn't need to keep everything. One day she will learn that :)
DeleteLove today's blog. You are right about the weather. I've been thinking it is a lot like life, ever changing.
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking about all the changes that have taken place in the last 6 months, not just for me but also for a lot of other people. A lot of the changes were unhappy ones. But just like the rain, the bad times ended and the sun came out again. I feel like I am moving through a sunny patch right now and am determined to make the best of it.
I hope your roller coaster lets you off long enough to enjoy some time with Valentina. Make some time for yourself as well. You have a lot of friends who would enjoy your company. *hugs*
I wish the roller coaster would just stop for a while... it is driving me a bit crazy. I am sure it will get better..right?
DeleteLaunna you sound like such a lovely spirit! Keep faith things will work out and God will lead and sustain you! Your daughter sounds so wonderful also! Far as bad weather goes...soooo feel ya there as we just endured here Tropical Storm Debby. She was no shrinking violet lol keep the faith hun xo
ReplyDeleteThank you Brenda, I am sorry to hear about Tropical storm Debby... that must have been awful.
DeleteThank you for the kind words, I am trying to keep the faith.;)
You have it right. Get organized. Reduce the clutter. And take time to be with your girl. You go, girl! :)
ReplyDeleteYes Diane, it will just take some time... lots of time, lol. I really just want to simplify;)
DeleteYou are a very inspirational person and I hope your days only get better!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, I really appreciate that. Your blog is awesome too:)
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