Back And Forth, Up And Down, Just Breathe

 "If I just breathe, every little piece of me, you'll see, everything is alright, if I just...breathe."

I've been laying in bed early, going back and forth in my mind trying to talk myself in to getting up so I could get all my housework done early but my body keeps saying sleep, it's your day off.

My body is strong willed but this time my mind will win out, I can see the blue sky from my window.  It looks lovely, especially after the crazy weather we had yesterday.  It started out sunny, then it got dark, rainy, then there was thunder and lightening, then hail.  All just to get sunny again.

Interesting I must say, although this is Nova Scotia and the joke here is if you don't like the weather, just wait 5 minutes.  Yesterday proved that theory correct.

I've been doing some deep thinking and making some decisions.  Big one's, I just have to figure out how I'm going to make them happen.  I also wonder how my decisions will impact others?   Then I think, well...  I have to be happy and this will make me happy. 

All this back and forth, up and down will finally be decided.  Ahh, I will finally be off the roller coaster; isn't that a good thing.  I'm going to spend this summer with Valentina, she needs her mama to be there for her fully.

Sometimes just making a decision makes life easier, all the turmoil or indecision is really difficult to deal with. I feel like I've been holding my breath for months and now I can breathe.  I forgot what it was like to breathe, I've been too tense for so long.

Time to get up, greet the day so that I can get all that I need done.  I have so many things I NEED to get done, I want to get organized, this will really help in my decisions.  I just need to simplify with the question; Will I need this in a year?   Have I used this in a year?   Either way it will have to go, that way I can clear the clutter.

Now just to make Valentina see it my way.  She'd be happier if she could purge and make room for more important things in her life.  Stuff never makes anyone happy, it never has.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield