The Whole Picture

Tomorrow's my birthday and truthfully I wish I was spending it with someone special, only one person could fulfill that wish and he's too far away... for now...  Most people don't like their birthdays as it means we're getting older.  I actually have started enjoying mine more as each year reminds me of how important and fleeting life is, it makes me sit back, reflect and appreciate where I'm at in my life.

I've come so far, much further than I ever though I could.  Which makes me know that anything and I do mean anything is possible.  If I can overcome all the negative thing in my past (and there have been many things), anything is possible.  I don't say that easily, I know there are many people who have had to and are now dealing with things that seem unbearable.  I'm not making light of those things.

I'm just saying that life has thrown me some major curves, the kind that would break most people, life can bend me and twist me but it'll never break me. Everyone says I'm strong, especially my David and although sometimes I don't want to be strong, I'm ultimately grateful that I am. 

There has to come a time in everyone's life when we decide that no matter what happens, we're not giving up.  That time for me is now, I see the big picture, not the small one that is here right now.  The long term big picture where life is sweeter than anything I've ever dreamed.   It's available to all of us, we just have to believe and hold on because life is meant to enjoy and have joy.

 I had another set back tonight, I could have literally fallen apart but nothing is written in stone, things could change, the future hasn't been written yet. I refuse to allow myself to be sad just because life throws me a curve.  I won't just survive this, I will thrive and become stronger.

At this rate, with all my set backs, disappointments... I should be the strongest person ever.  All I can say is wow... one day I will look back on all of this and smile... there is a reason.   I even think I know the reason, which makes this set back easier... not simple, just easier.  I can see the whole picture, which makes it easier to stay on track and not let go... just because.....

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield