I'm Coming Back To Me‏

I can't believe how fast this summer has flown by, next week my Valentina starts grade 4, eek.  All I can say is wow, she was just a baby yesterday, wasn't she?  Of course my Andrea is all grown up and married with her own little one, another whoa moment.

I wanted to let you all know that the long dark tunnel I was in, where I was beginning to wonder if there was going to be a light; is actually starting to have a dim light.  I'm finally sighing and beginning to hope once again, I will be back to me.

I really had a very long rough ride, it almost won out.  I was beginning to think I might actually be in a depression but it was only about one thing, so I don't think that I was.  I just think I was beyond sad, a very heart broken sad.  I am feeling like my heart is beginning to repair itself. 

Unfortunately, I won't allow her to love with abandon again, that was a bit too much to take. So I'm just going to be a mama, a mommy, a glama nana and a good friend. These are the things that make me happy and make me smile. This is what is important in life.

I will always love my David and eventually when his son Chris is in a better state physically and emotionally, we will pick up where we left off and be the best friends we always have been. I am forever grateful that he came back into my life and showed me I was worth so much more than I ever thought.  I lost my way for quite a bit but I'm back on the path again.

One day soon, I'll be able to tell him all this and I think he'll be very happy for me. I wish so much happiness for him, he needs some good things to come into his life soon.  He gave up the best woman for him, ME;).  So, now he'll have to settle for second best, lol.

See, I'm coming back to me :).

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield