What A Difference An Hour Makes‏

I was so tired last night I was cranky, you know that kind of tired that you can barely get out of your own way?  I say barely as I even ticked myself off with how snappy I was.  My body was begging to lay down on my soft comfy bed, mmmm.  

Lucky for me my little Valentina goes to bed by 8:30, I was in bed a little after 9:00... my head hit the pillow and I'm sure I was out in seconds.  I was hoping for more energy from this cleanse but I guess I can't blame it, it's more likely the infection in my leg that is taking my energy to heal.

I can't wait to see the doctor to see if he can possibly give me some good news.  Either find a way to heal it, or operate.  This has been going off and on for 12 years, something has to be done.  Although I'm vocal, I'm taking Cindy with me... I'm sure she will set the doctor straight...  so I am not too worried.

At least emotionally I'm feeling somewhat better and definitely more hopeful.  It's so draining to be sad, it uses up a ton of energy and on top of that, I couldn't sleep.  Now I can sleep and it's all that I want to do, maybe my body is in recovery and trying to make up for all that I put it through for the last little while.

Anyhow, the most wonderful thing happened last night, my David finally messaged me and we really talked.  No one will completely understand how very happy that this has made me.  I can breathe, really breathe; I didn't even realize how much I was not breathing properly until he and I finally talked.  Just as I knew, we picked up like it was yesterday.  It felt SO good to just freely message and say whatever, sigh.

It was so worth waking up for when the text message came in, my blackberry plays a song...  I looked at it and it was him, I could have cried tears of joy. I am now, it just felt like such a huge relief. 

His son is still not the best, so I will pray even more for Chris, he desperately needs something good to happen for him, I feel so sad for Chris to have all these health issues at the young age of 21. 

Anyway, focusing on the good, I have my David as my friend and right now my world is pretty happy.  Have a wonderful day everyone.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield