Being Me And Following A Prompting

I always try to be my real self, even when I feel that it's difficult to handle.  Mainly because I have no other way to be.  I've tried to cover how I feel, without success; I'm just a girl who wears her heart on her sleeve, I know of no other way to be.

Believe me if I could figure out another way, I would have, however; I can be nothing less than authentic.  I don't write everything here, if I did I would shock people.  I only tell one person everything and that of course is my 'D'.

With everything being so strained between us for the last couple of months, I've had no outlet.  It's one of the reasons I started this cleanse, I had to be real with me.  Finally, I slowly started to talk with my 'D' again, it's been good.

All day Sunday I kept feeling the need to tell my David that I loved him.  I was afraid to tell him, afraid that it would cause us problems.  I put it off, the feeling wouldn't go away.  So last night he came on line, we talked, really talked and not just about the weather.  I finally got my nerve up and asked him if it was okay to tell him that I loved him as my friend?  He sent me a smile. 

I breathed, really breathed.  No matter what happens, we're going to be okay.  That makes me very happy, I needed to know that everything was good between us now. 

I followed a prompting and it felt awesome.  I know I should follow them more but I always think I know best, I'm happy that I was proven wrong.  I never want to be less than who I am with my David.  I need to be able to be real with someone other than myself, otherwise I'll never grow to my full potential.

In less than two weeks it will be my Andrea's birthday.  I will be on Facebook that one day as I want to send her a birthday wish from me and I'm writing a post about her.  Even though she and I have issues, we are very close.  She means the world to me and I'm so very proud of her, I love her insanely.

I used to think it would be impossible to love another child as much as I loved Andrea but I do, of course I love them differently but not more than the other. I'm incredibly grateful for my two daughters, both have helped me grow and both have taught me lessons.

I'm very grateful and very lucky.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield