Empowered

I've been thinking about my ex Andrey since he sees Valentina every week and I'm there unfortunately.  I don't like to be around him, he reminds me of too many memories.  All the name calling, the pushing, the threats and finally the rape.

All of that was hard to overcome but I have, I will never tolerate less than I deserve again. It feels great to be so strong, it reminds me of the song by Helen Reddy, 'I am woman hear me roar'.  I wrote about this song one other time.  It was after I stood up to Andrey in court.  It felt so liberating and free, I'm beginning to feel like that butterfly:).

I guess I am stronger than I think I am, I really have survived some very awful things.  I'm not going to let any of it bring me down, I am grateful for my two beautiful daughters and for amazing friends who have faith in me and believe in me.  Everyone of my good friends helped me get through all the life choices I made to deal with what Andrey had put me through. I don't need to behave so recklessly now that I've dealt with those things that I put up with from Andrey.

You know what I can say about that girl, she was sad and she felt trapped. I wish I would have known that I was free to live my life the way I wanted. I just had to make that decision and I finally did. One of the best things I ever did for myself.

Now because I know I am worth more than that, I deserve the best.  I won't settle for anything but the best.  I love that Helen Reddy song, it's a beautiful reminder of how strong we really are as women.  It's empowering!!!

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield