The Heart Wants What The Heart Wants

“The heart wants what it wants – or else it does not care.” — Emily Dickinson

This phrase above has been running through my mind half of this evening, so much so that I had to Google it... I know I saw it in a movie one time and it frustrates me that I couldn't remember.  Anyhow, when I looked it up on line, I could only find this one above and the one I remember was 'The heart wants what the heart wants' or the other suggestion was that Woody Allen said it and let me tell you, I didn't hear it in a movie of his as he is one director that I detest.  I am not a fan of his movies.

Anyhow, I digress, apparently quite easy for me, I can lose my train of thought just like that, it's from fatigue. So, this thought has been on my mind, it is amazing how our heart controls so much of our thoughts, I can make myself think of other things and then my heart takes over with heart thoughts.  It is there to remind me that even though I am trying to cut of feeling that my heart is always there to remind me that there is always something to feel. 

Just the little things like crunchy leaves in the Fall, crisp white snow in the winter, colorful flowers in the spring and clear blue skies in the summer.  When I let my heart take over, I go on a journey of love... I see beauty around me that is breath taking, I see love in the smallest of places.  It reminds me that I can have that, I just have to believe I deserve it.  The thing is we all do, we all deserve to have love in our lives.

The thing about my heart is that she lets me get out of control, I begin to love so strongly and powerfully and while it is an amazing feeling... there is nothing like that feeling from any other source.  It is also a far way to fall when you feel it slip away, as is always true, the heart wants what the heart wants, if she can't get that feeling again, nothing else will do.

I talked to someone the other day about opening myself back up to the opportunity for love... you know what I decided, if it happens that would be okay, if it doesn't I won't be devastated.  I am afraid of allowing it for only one reason because I know myself well, very well.  I am not one to hurt another person but if my heart could have what she wants, she would take the opportunity in a flash.  Nothing would hold me back, she's dedicated and loyal to what she wants.

My mind however; thinks it would be very unfair of me to enter into anything I could not commit my whole heart and soul to, that is why this quote was on my mind tonight.  If anyone reading this has any idea what movie this quote from, can you message me below, it will bug me for a long time, lol.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield