Changing My Outerworld To Match My Inner World

I started this cleanse I'm on so that I could get back on the right path, I had strayed so far that I was unable to see where I knew I should be.  I'm only a little over 60 days in and although I haven't been perfect on this cleanse, I have moved forward in great strides.

One, I've been eating very healthy except for the occasional treat; food can be rather boring and bland if you don't mix it up here and there.  What I don't want to happen is that I feel so deprived I go over board and undo all my hard work. Salad is really yummy but truthfully, I can only eat so much salad before my body rebels.

Two, I have cut back on social media so that it doesn't own me anymore; that feels good.  I have control right now, I don't want to go back down that path where it owned me. I want a real life where I actually see people and talk to them, not just liking a Facebook status.

Three, I de cluttered my house, that feels beyond amazing.  I am loving the organization.  I still have some spots that need work but I'm headed in the right direction.  I would not mind anyone just dropping in on me, I would welcome my friends with open arms.  When my house was out of control, I wouldn't have let anyone in.

Four, my blog was becoming so depressing because of how sad I was; I'm feeling more hopeful.  I feel lighter and happier; not that joyous happiness I've had in the past but that peaceful happiness I need to live with more brightness. I'm able to see that light at the end of the tunnel, the one that I knew was there but couldn't see.

Five, I'm learning to say I can even when I feel that I can't because the truth is that I can set my mind to do whatever needs to be done. I've done this with work and my knowledge is growing so quickly I'm even surprising myself.

I'm giving myself a break on this cleanse at the end of this month. I'm going to allow a little TV and social media; my 'D' will be back from his exercise but than he's going in for surgery and he will be off work for 4 weeks.  I'm worried and praying for him; I want to be there for him in anyway that I can.

I'm going to stick with most of the food part as I really don't need all the refined sugar and wheat that I used to eat.  I will allow myself an occasional treat, much like I've been doing.  I want to continue to lose weight and become healthier.  I really want to exercise and as soon as the doctor tells me its okay, I'm going to start running.

This cleanse has done most of what I needed, I'm back on the path.  I'm not exactly where I want to be but I'm so much closer than I was over 2 months ago.  I'm feeling direction in my life, which makes me happier. 

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield