My One And Only 'D'

I have been blogging almost everyday for over 7 months, I can see that when I'm committed I can accomplish what I set my mind to, which feels good to know.  When I put my mind to blogging was when I realized that David and I were not going to end up together.

I was so heartbroken that I had to write to get it out or I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to cope.  It was back in May that I wrote one of my top three favorite blogs; it was 'My One And Only'.  I had actually written it for myself, I just wanted a memory of how David and I began and how we progressed.

Anyhow, after I wrote it I cried, when I read it I cried.  It was full of all the love I felt for my 'D' and couldn't express to him because we were just friends.  I held on to it for a week or so but then I decided to share it and I'm so glad I did, it made us more real to me.  For a while after I realized we wouldn't be together, I almost thought it might have just been a dream.

But it wasn't, it was real and although it makes me cry when I read it, I'm also happy to remember how incredibly wonderful I felt then.  I'm just grateful that I could feel that exuberantly happy, it's very over powering.  

 

I sometimes wish... then I stop myself, wishing never got me anywhere just pain. I want to get to the point where I can read about us and hear those songs I associate with us and just be happy.  I'm working on it daily, wanting to get to the place where I will feel peace about us.

I'm sure one day I'll get to that point, it's hard to do when you know something was meant to be. The whole thing is that we cannot get people to see or know what we know.  I wish I could share the story from the beginning, with the feelings I have inside being able to be conveyed.  All I can say is if you were as sure as I was and am, that you would understand. 

Isn't that what we all want, just peace, happiness and love.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield