Preparing Myself

It's been a couple of days since I blogged, that's not like me.  Especially since I've had so much on my mind.  Instead of writing, I've been thinking through my issues, I'm still working on them.  My mind has been racing with thoughts, trying so hard to figure everything out and I only feel like I'm spinning my wheels.  I've decided to put it away for awhile, hopefully I will find an answer down the road.

I've been on my cleanse for almost six weeks, not watching TV has been the easiest thing, my social media has been more difficult for me.  It's my way to stay in contact with my family and friends.  I can see me staying with the food part of the cleanse for the majority of my eating.  I will allow a little of the items I gave up, however; I will be more conscientious.


Something big that I have learned here is that I kind of miss the simpler times before Black berry's and internet, before we felt the need to have instant contact, that will entail my not being so addicted to social networking once I come back in November. 

I've been walking some, not enough but I'm working on building up my stamina so that as soon as my doctor says that I can start running, that I'll be ready. I've even found some friends that run now and are willing to run with me when I'm ready.

I am taking next week after the holidays (Thanks giving) to start cleaning.  I'm going to do Valentina's room first, that will take me a whole day, then the kitchen (another day).  Finally, I can do my room and the living room in one day.

It's difficult to get myself out of the rut that I have been in this past nine months but I have to do it regardless of how I feel.  Living in the disaster is starting to cause me more issues.   I know that once I get it organized I will feel so much better.  I also know that cleaning the clutter in my home will help clear my mind as well, clutter is always a symptom of what is going on in my life.

So, the first step is de cluttering my home, which in turn should de clutter my life... helping me to see the future with opportunities.  I really need to get my home and life in a little order before I actually have to go in for my operation.  Once I have that I will be very limited, Cindy will come down periodically which is wonderful... I want it to be simple for her, so I need to be prepared.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield