I've had a rough couple of days, I woke up this morning and realized my leg was still not back to any normalcy, Cindy is ill again too. I decided to take the day off work to rest my leg as much as possible. Also, I have been on a roller coaster of emotions of having David in the hospital. He was having bad feelings before he went in, I was trying to stay positive... then I heard he came through okay. I was thrilled but than later that night I heard from him that he had a fever... the next day the fever was still high and he had a few complications. I was scared, I was here in Halifax and no way for me to be there with him, I really felt useless.
At least he was able to text message me once or twice a day to let me know how he was, which wasn't the greatest since he was finding it so hard to get any sleep. I really am happy that he is home now, he should be able to get some rest but it was hard to stay up when all that was going down. Then my leg became unbearably painful, I was unable to walk, which is pretty darned scary for me. I know it is a matter of time and the medication will kick in, I will be feeling my normal self, it's just hard to keep it up until I get there.
Anyhow, I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, that is what we all have to do, wait for that light to appear, it always does. I never think it is easy, you would think I would learn something from all this, not to worry so much... the light always appears. I never give up but I waiver when I shouldn't. Some things have become apparent to me these last few days, things I didn't want to deal with. However; there really is not a good time to deal with some things, we just have to do it when the time comes.
Since I am off today, I am going to spend the day getting up to date on reading my blogs, that will take the better part of the day but I am looking forward to catching up.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield
Oh Launna, prayers For you and D.. true, there's always light in the end of the tunnel :)))you have a great Day! All the best :)
ReplyDelete'I never give up but I waiver when I shouldn't'- you are definitely too hard on yourself! You're so positive and brilliant, but I can feel sometimes you're making little digs at yourself and I think it's mostly subconscious 'cause you ARE so positive. Go easy, you'll be standing in the light soon, I just know it. Thinking of you! <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Maarit, thank you for all the prayers, I am grateful for each one!
ReplyDeleteThank you Rebecca, that is so sweet of you to say about how positive and brilliant I am; I am very grateful that I have that ability to see the good, even when it is difficult :)
ReplyDeleteEverything has its time, Launna.
ReplyDeleteEclesiaste 3:8 in the Bible we find a text that says that everything has its time determined by God.
Kisses in your heart.
Thank you Jaqueline, I hope my time is soon xox
ReplyDeleteWe always have to look for that light, Launna. I'm in the same boat, but once you see that light, it's awesome and you'll feel so much more ready to approach the world. Hold your head up hight! You'll make it :)
ReplyDeleteSending both you and David much healing light. Many blessings to you!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you Allena, I am working hard to see the light... it has not always been easy.
ReplyDeleteThank you Suzanne... I will take any and all prayers and good thoughts~
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