I Made It Through, It Wasn't Easy

This week is a week of memories for me, one year ago my 'D' was working on coming home for the holidays.  He and I were talking about the future, life was generally falling into place for me. My long time fantasy and dream was about to happen.

David and I were only texting at that point as he was away taking an intense course that he did amazing on.  He studies very hard to do well, he's not afraid of putting in the effort.  Anyhow, I spent the week before cleaning my apartment, just keeping myself busy.

I didn't want any distractions when David finally got there.  I just wanted to relax, talk with him, make plans.  It was a really busy week leading up to that day December 14, 2011.  That week before was also a time to reflect on all the changes that were about to happen.  

I was prepared to downgrade to necessary items since I was preparing to pack up and move to be with David.  I knew with the army that, that could take us anywhere; in the past I would have been afraid but with my 'D' I was excited.

By the end of this year I will be moving on from my past memories of my David.  I'm just going to document them here, I want them available to me always. Last year this time, I wasn't blogging very often, I wrote occasionally when I was struck by certain things, it wasn't until my break up with David when I really started taking blogging more seriously.  I needed to write, I had so much going on with my life and my emotions, I knew that if I didn't write that I might never get through all the pain.

I made it through and it wasn't easy... it was harder than anything I have ever had to deal with!

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield