It was up to me to make the decision... what do I want? Do I want true happiness? Or do I want what only brings me joy occasionally? I have a lot to think about, a lot of ideas need to be weighed out in my mind.
2012 was the year my heart was broken, it will forever be a sad year for me. I'm looking forward to 2013 and some better times; I've already started My Jar Of Happy Memories with spending Christmas day with Valentina, she's very entertaining company.
That odd dream made me think about some decisions I have to make, I keep waffling as I want things my way. I don't want to give up because that's like quitting... and I never quit.
The dream, however; made me think that I might not know best; maybe I just have to let go, set myself free and be open to new possibilities... no it wouldn't be easy, hence why I've not gone there yet, it's going to be hard. So incredibly hard, I will want to give in every other day...
Life was easier before my odd dream...
Dreams can be disturbing sometimes. I'm looking forward to the new year and a fresh slate. Wishing you all the best in the New Year!
ReplyDeleteIt can be hard to follow your dreams when you at sleep dreams are different. I wish you the absolute best in the New Year Daisy :)
ReplyDeleteThis post was touching, loved it! :) All the best for you and big hugs! Remember to dream big!
ReplyDeleteAwe Susanna, you are such a sweetie ;). Valentina said you are beautiful, I told her it was because you're beautiful on the inside ;)
ReplyDeleteYou need to go with what your gut tells you to do--the dream is trying to remind you of that!
ReplyDeleteThat's very true Menopausal mama, I want what I want... I guess I should want what I'm supposed to want :S
ReplyDeleteOpening ourself to new possibilities is the start of allowing new things to happen in our life and sometimes in not holding on so tight we find what we think we have lost is still present. Other times new better things appear that we would have missed if we had kept our eyes so rigidly focused ahead without allowing ourselves to look around as well. I hope everything works out for you Launna and I am glad you had a nice Christmas with your daughter.
ReplyDeleteThank you Behind the Smile, I had a lovely Christmas with Valentina... sometimes letting go is one of the hardest things to do... I am working at it.
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