One Year Ago Today My Fantasy Met My Reality‏

I'm probably being mean to myself writing this post since I'm already crying and I have barely started writing it.  Today it has been one year since David came home for Christmas.

I remember waking up early that morning, I wanted a nice long shower so I could try to relax a little. My 'D' was flying home to his daughter Stephanie, his mom and me. I'd only known for sure he was coming for maybe 3 days before.  I remembered lingering under the hot shower, smiling and thinking how I'd never felt so happy in such a long time.

I had to work that day but David and I kept in close contact through texting. I knew when he arrived and left Toronto and when he finally landed in Halifax. I was no good at work that day, especially after my 'D' texted me to come downstairs.  He was standing there with a dozen red roses; I hugged him and I didn't want to let him go.  It felt as wonderful as I dreamed to hold him close to me.

I had to go back to work after that, I was totally unable to concentrate.  I was smiling so much my face was actually starting to hurt a little. All I could focus on was that David was here, he was picking me up after work, I was going to be able to kiss him after 33 years of daydreaming about it. 

It was FINALLY 5:30 and time for me to see David, actually talk face to face, be able to kiss, hold hands, look in each others eyes. We giggled when I got in the car, I know we were both SO happy this day had arrived.  I could barely wait to kiss him, I knew I wasn't going to wait a minute longer. 

I just knew the kiss would be amazing, it was better than every day dream I'd ever had.  It was one of those kisses that gives you butterflies in your belly, weakens your knees and makes you sigh.  Those are few and hard to come by in life, being compatible with kissing is not always easy to find.  I did not have to worry that kiss did not disappoint in the least.

We tried to go out for dinner, instead we went shopping and giggled like teenagers.  I'd be on one side of the store and I'd look across the room, he'd flash me one of his beautiful smiles and I would melt a little more.  We held hands and played with each others fingers, smiling... we were both so ecstatic. 

We came home and we just stood in my hall hugging, it felt like a dream; one I was afraid I would wake up from.  It was real though, I had never felt such joy being so close to David that night in my hall, my 'D' has big arms that make me feel so safe and I rested my head on his chest and heard/felt his heartbeat.

He and I had talked closely for nearly 2 months before this day had finally arrived; it all felt so surreal. That day my fantasy met my reality and for once in my life my reality was SO much better than my fantasy.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield