You would think that the older that we get, the wiser we'd be, I'm still like that teenager inside. I still cannot believe some of the choices I have made... I know Mastin Kipp from 'The Daily Love' says we are not broken, nor do we need to be fixed. I find that so hard to believe about me...
I know I've had amazing and happy times in my life, I have some lovely memories... I also have deep dark sobbing sorrow, events I want to forget. I know, I know, I know... those events made me who I am today and changing them could change who I've become.
I don't want to wallow in the sadness, I don't want to feel lost and lonely... I want to change, I need to feel happiness more than I feel sadness.
I'm turning the page on that last chapter of my life, I just might be pleasantly surprised.
I'm long overdue with reading your post and sharing your wisdom. Thanks for being who you are and for the strong example that you set. You work darn hard to be better, and you always wear your happy face around me. We all have life experiences that drag us down but it's when you stand despite them that you become a giant to many...like me!! love you
ReplyDeleteIt is through processing pain that I am ever able to close the chapter and look forward to my next happy endeavor. It's how we grow. This past year has been tough for you, you needed this year to process and review. This next chapter of your life will be positive and amazing from all that you have learned from taking your time to process through it.
ReplyDeleteThank you Jackie... I really appreciate the comment... I am trying to be the best me I can be... sometimes it's very hard;)
ReplyDeleteThank you Joy, sometimes I feel like people think I should be completely over everything just like that, I think it is a process as you say... I am turning that page though... otherwise I will be in the same place next year..
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ReplyDelete"Take a jar for 2013.
If good things happen, write them down on a note & do them in the jar.
On New Years Eve you can open the jar and see how amazing the year was."
I'm doing that Sonja, I wrote about it that a few weeks ago. I'm hoping to see some good from it! Thank you for translating for me :)
ReplyDeleteI hope 2013 is filled with joy for you Launna. You are a strong person who is an inspiration. You deserve to be happy. Smiles.
ReplyDeleteI like that quote by Zayn Malik. I never really looked at it like that before.
ReplyDeleteI think so many of us are in this stage of reflection and the tying off of loose ends as we wind down the final days of 2012. As you mentioned when you visited my blog, turning the page involves making some tough choices. You're not alone in this, honey. I'm looking at some difficult decisions as well, ones that I don't want to make, but know that I have to. I choose to believe that although I am making these choices of my own free will, my decisions are also being guided. Divine guidance is always there; I just have to believe that for all of us. Be well as you walk forward into your next, new chapter!
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
- Dawn
Thank you Behind the Smile, you deserve to be happy too, smiles back:)
ReplyDeleteThanks Daisy, I love that quote too, it really touched me:)
ReplyDeleteThank you Dawn, making those tough choices are the hardest... sometimes they end up being the most rewarding... if we can just make them.
ReplyDeleteI so love this post -- I can very well relate with you. At 41, I sometimes think and behave like a silly teenager! The crying on the bus, that's also something I'm familiar with. Wait, I'm starting to be sentimental. Lol! By the way, I like the alliterations you used here (deep dark sobbing sorrow). Lovely!
ReplyDeleteThank you Rhodora... I always write what is in my heart, sometimes it is very sad but it needs to be said;)
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