Take A Small Step In The Right Direction

The quote above reminded me that I was at a very low point over the holidays in 2012, where I could not see how I would or could be happy again.  I had so many memories and emotions that I had to deal with, I wasn't sure I wouldn't break down completely after the holidays.  I was seeing some light at the end of the tunnel but I couldn't see the full picture.

I don't know the single moment in time that it changed but I know that it came with taking a small step... am I saying it has been suddenly easy to deal with the David thing?  No, it isn't simple but I took a step in the right direction... I made the choice to turn it around.  No one else could have got me there, only me.... I had to trust myself enough to take the step.

Last year was highly emotional for me as everyone who either reads my blog or knows me is aware of this.  I just wanted to feel peace again, I wanted to stop spinning out of control.  I realized that I was looking at it all the wrong way, I was looking for peace to take over my life when I needed to give peace to find it... exactly like love.  This is the way it is with anything good, if you want kindness, you give kindness... there are no limitations.

Here is something I have learned this past year, sometimes we have to lose what is most important to us so that we will become who we are meant to be.  This is NOT an easy lesson, it is incredibly difficult, I cannot even begin to explain the depths of emotions that I have had to go through to get to where I am today.

I know I have gone through a great deal but nothing harder than what other people have gone through, just different challenges and trials. We all have highs and lows, learning to deal with the lows without letting them break us apart is the key to our success.  I am ever learning daily what it takes, I won't ever give up trying.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥