Holding On To Your Center

Mastin Kipp from the Daily Love always has inspiring people on his blog that give us amazing quotes that really make us really think.

"What's difficult in life is to stay centered when somebody does or says something that tempts us to close our hearts because their heart was closed. That is hard. But that is also how we grow. We go through those circumstances in order to evolve into people who can hold to our loving center no matter what the world throws us."

- Marianne Williamson



I know that when I open an email from Mastin, it will make me think, ponder, question... which is a great thing for growth.  What I really got from that quote above was that it is not what challenges we have to deal with... it is how we deal with them.  I have long believed this as it is in my bio on Facebook and on my blog.  What I learned here was that it is by holding on to our center that this is what propels us to grow.

It's not that I think we don't have the right to be sad, disappointed, upset....  there are events in life that bring us to our knees and threatens to lose the center of who we are.   It is more about how we bring ourselves back up, by how we refuse to hold on to the event that is just something to bring us down.  I have grown through many of the challenges or trials I have had to deal with, let me tell you, I have been so low that I wondered how I would ever find my way back.

I did though, time and again... I find my way back.  I am stronger for each of these... even grateful at times.  Some events are harder to be grateful for than others... some I still work on.  I have learned a great deal about myself, especially in the past five years.  It has been a little over five years since I found my voice and my backbone and I had Andrey removed from my home.

I fell back into traps but finally freed myself from many of them. What I work on the most is that I want to ignore what other people think of me, I know my worth.  It does not depend on what other people think of me, it is based on what I believe. 

I have gone up and down over the past year or so, wondering about my worth... getting it at times but only to lose it because I failed to really see and understand my true worth.  My David was a big part of this... I tried so hard to figure out what it was that went wrong?  What did I do?  What did I say?.... I had to let this all go and that just because things didn't work out for David and me... this did not reflect on me. 

I didn't do anything, I didn't say anything.... it just didn't work out.  It doesn't mean there is something wrong with me, although believe me... I beat myself up for that for a very long time.  I have been working on being centered... so that I don't let the next trial I have control me or make me think less of myself.  That's what being centered is about... knowing that no matter what happens, I go back to the core.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥