So, such an emotional day... you know those days that kind of knock the breath out of you. Nothing dire like an accident, a loss of a job or such... just a day that make you feel so many of your feelings that you begin to be overwhelmed by them. I have had nothing but time to think for this past two weeks while I had surgery and was in the hospital... now home thankfully; this time to think brings you to a new awareness of yourself.
At least for me it did... I had nothing to mask it... no getting up and prepared for work, traveling there, handling clients inquiries, getting home... over eating, depriving my body sleep... the numerous things we all do to zone out... not deal... just let life take over. Well I don't have those things, when my body is tired... it just knocks me out, I don't have a lot of energy yet... so I spend a lot of time just resting and thinking.
I have been working on some things I need to deal with and I thought I was getting to a good point... I have been working very hard to get there but then today, just out of the blue... someone felt the need to share something with me that they knew would hurt me even though I was incredibly happy for them... I know this sounds odd... I'm not ready to explain the full incident, just that I was completely overwhelmed by the situation... the first thing I thought of was what could I do to avert those painful feelings.
Anything... I just didn't want to feel, it's those overwhelming feelings that we all eventually have to deal with head on if we are to ever move on. This is one of those, I am going to lay out my requirements and sit back and let things play out as they were meant to play out. I will deal with the fall out, no matter the outcome. I think this is the only way I can get through this challenge... otherwise I will return to old methods to get me through each day and that is not living. That's when you forget to breathe after having your breath knocked out of you... we just have to take a deep breath and move forward...
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥
You can do it!! You are awesome, vibrant, loyl and strong!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that someone said something hurtful to you. Remember, though, when someone behaves badly like that it reflects on them not on you, so don't let them bring you down. I love the first quote you used on this post. :)
ReplyDeleteHello Launna:
ReplyDeleteWhilst it is good that you are having plenty of time for rest and relaxation, it can be overwhelming to have too much time to think at these times. When one is busy, many little problems go by unnoticed but, with time on one's hands, these issues can grow bigger.
Think positive thoughts. Dreams can and do come true!
It's a scenario that sounds fmailiar to me - someone saying something hurtful but something that should make you happy for thenm. Quite a confusing mix of emotions isn't it?
ReplyDeleteOh Launna... Breath and again...you are such a great person. Breath and let it go...and hey, so great to have you back! Missed you :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Joy... I am working on seeing myself that way more often:)
ReplyDeleteThank you Daisy... I am happy for them but I am sad for me... wow... I sound selfish and that is the last thing I want to be.
ReplyDeleteThank you Jane and Lance... I am working on the positive, I will get there and yes... dreams can come true:)
ReplyDeleteThank you Keith... you hit the head on the nail... someone saying something hurtful but that thing is something that should make you happy for them...
ReplyDeleteYou found the words I was unable to articulate... it is a bag of mixed emotions and very hard to deal with... but I always look forward...
Thank you Maarit... I appreciate the kind words... I missed all of you too:)
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