How Did I Get Through All Of That?

l read the quote above and it made me really think... "How did I get through all of that?"... Honestly, I am not sure how I did... I think I am still working on it daily.  As the quote below states, I just keep putting one foot in front of the other, trusting I will eventually climb to the top of the mountain... One day I will hopefully be able to look back and understand why I had to go through some of the trials I have had to endure.  Some of them I have no idea why.... I guess I will have to have faith and understand that sometimes we don't get the answers we are looking for when we want them, if ever...

I just want to get to the top of the mountain so that I can see that I made it...  I want to look back and see that I was as strong as everyone has always said I am... There are times I wonder if they are right?  I want to believe them but inside I don't feel strong...

I have a long road in front of me, just to get my strength back to where it was before my operation.  I am really grateful that Spring is around the corner as the nice weather will be easier for me to walk and exercise... I am actually looking forward to getting into shape... I know that I want to be able to run a 5K by New Years, I may see if I can do one of these by early Fall.  It will all depend on how much training I can get in before the Fall arrives...

Regardless of how long it takes me to get into shape, I am in it for the long haul... I am motivated in a way I have not been for a very long time... I have an end goal with the running and I have a long term goal with getting into shape and staying there... I know it won't be easy but I really want to do this for me.

I'm hoping with running that I will see how strong I am and it will show me I am capable of more than I ever thought I was.  Maybe then I will see that strength in myself that other people see... I want to believe in myself and know that I can get through whatever is thrown at me and come out stronger...

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥