Clearing My Mind To Untangle My Thoughts

 

I didn't have the energy to blog last night, due to the fact that I only had two hours of sleep the night before.  I attempted to write as I had some very wonderful inspiration, however; everything I wrote was garbled, it made no sense... I ultimately gave up and went to sleep.  I am still studying The Purpose Driven Life, it's very enlightening... I always come away with something profound or thoughtful.

I will write two catch up posts tomorrow to get back on top of things.  I already have a general idea of what I want to say, I just need to have the rested mind to actually write those thoughts out so that they don't come out all tangled up together.

I have been thoroughly enjoying being back to work, laughing and chatting with my co-workers... I really felt the love when I came back as so many people hugged me and told me how much they missed me.  It is wonderful to know how appreciated you are, they even wrote me daily notes on a note pad, counting down my return and how happy they were going to be... I felt so special ....

The other reason my thoughts are all tangled up is that I am disappointed and angry (the last one being my least favorite mood as being angry serves no good purpose), however; I am... It comes from when people say one thing to me, then do another and than act like I am stupid, either that or they are... either way it is maddeningly frustrating when it happens to me.

Then I am upset with myself since I don't address the issue because I am afraid of flying off the handle and then saying things that will make it much worse... instead I have allowed myself to feel angry which is foolish... I guess I will have to confront the individual and say my peace as nicely as possible...

Finally, I am really considering joining up with The Canada Games Center, it has a pool, a track, workout rooms, Zumba classes, yoga and so much more. I am wanting a family pass so that Valentina and I can spend an hour or more there in the evenings getting ourselves healthy.  It is a little spendy but so worth it for all the health benefits.  Much less time with TV and general wasting of time... I will have to be organized to still be able to put my blog together each night but I think this is a good thing.  I will blog about my progress as I want to keep a written journal...

If you have had anger with someone who says one thing to you but turns around and does the complete opposite, how did you deal with it?  If you confronted the person, was it worth it?  Did it change everything between you?  I totally believe in forgiving people and not holding onto hurt... this one has me stumped though... I am hoping with time, I will get a handle on that feeling and not let it take over my thoughts completely.... 

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥