I Am Worth The Journey

I am wide awake, I took a nap this afternoon... how come it seems so much easier to nap in the day than it does to sleep at night?  It was one of those cool afternoons where it feels so good to curl up in bed with a couple of your favorite blankets and then just drift off to sleep.  Hopefully I will still be able to sleep tonight, lately it seems I need to take my sleep when it comes, otherwise I may never get any.

I have been having a reflective weekend, one where I go from one thought to the next which then brings me to the next one... Maybe that is why I don't sleep, I have so many thoughts going on in my head that I don't give myself enough down time. I think giving ourselves the gift of time is the best gift we can give... I am really grateful that I am going to be joining The Canada Games Center this week, I feel like this will be giving myself time.  While I am there, whether I am running, swimming, doing a Zumba class... I will be giving time to myself to get healthy.

I am excited for this new chapter in my life, it is one long over due... it is because I didn't value myself enough before.  Lately I realize if I don't value myself, Valentina may not value herself...  I want her see that I take care of myself and that she should take care of herself.  I have let me go because of one excuse after the other, never believing I deserved this... the time is now though, I don't want to be sitting here a year from now wishing I had started.  I want to post a year from now that I not only accomplished my goal, I am still there, keeping it up and having fun.

Valentina asked me how long we would be going, I told her for as long as she wanted... that made her happy, this is something she and I can do together and we will have time to chat on the bus on the way home every night.  I am happy that this will bring us closer together... especially since she will be a teenager before I know it and that is a little scary for me. My Valentina is a really sweet little girl but I am not burying my head in the sand, she will be a teenager soon and it changes even the best of girls. I really think that spending all this time getting healthy together will help her and I stay close.

Once I join this week, I am going to weigh and measure myself and start keeping track... I will just check in weekly with both of these.  Once I feel more comfortable, I will share my stats... I will update you all with the amount of weight I lose as well as all the activities I participate in.  I feel like this is the beginning of a long journey but one that will be worth all the effort...

 I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥