"Every positive change--every jump to a higher level of energy and
awareness--involves a rite of passage. Each time to ascend to a higher
rung on the ladder of personal evolution, we must go through a period of
discomfort, of initiation. I have never found an exception."
I had a long day at work, not because it was busy by any means... it was actually pretty quiet, especially for a Monday. It was a long day because I woke up earlier than normal so that I could finish the laundry and do my hair (that 45 minute to an hour job), thankfully I don't have to do it everyday or I am sure I would cut my hair... lol... as much as I love it, I couldn't imagine doing this every day for nearly an hour. Anyhow, just before I left work, we all received an email about the shuttle service that they supply us with. It will be cancelled the end of July... which is less than 90 days away.
This is huge for anyone who takes the shuttle like myself because it will tack on another 30 to 45 minutes to my travel time. I will be lucky to make it home by 6:30-7:00 at night, instead of 6:00. I already have an eleven hour day, now I will have close to a twelve hour day. I feel like I take too much of my time away from Valentina and this is just more time. I have decided not to worry about it for now, I will hopefully figure out something in the next few months.
"The
strongest oak of the forest is not the one that is protected from the
storm and hidden from the sun. It's the one that stands in the open
where it is compelled to struggle for its existence against the winds
and rains and the scorching sun.”
Although losing the shuttle service is not life threatening, it is another challenge I am having to face and the quote above reminds me that if I am being challenged regularly whether it is in big or small ways, it means I must be strong enough to deal with what is given to me. I don't mind admitting that I am getting a little tired of each challenge handed to me, I honestly feel like saying 'really'? Again? Which then makes me feel selfish and that reminds me why not me?
If anyone tells me it's all in the way I perceive it... I seriously want to slap them... lol. I will come to my own on this, as I do with everything. First I have to be angry than frustrated than I find a way to accept it... that is the way I deal with almost all changes. I adore people that go with the flow, unfortunately I am not one of those people.... I have come a long way in the past ten years... At least now when a change happens, I take time to go through my frustration without it allowing it to control my every thought and mood.
I think going through the stages, as you describe, is the healthiest way of accepting things.
ReplyDeleteYou're allowed to be frustrated and annoyed or whatever else. I agree with Keith up there.. I think you are doing it right.
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LuLu
Breakfast After 10
Beautiful post :)
ReplyDeleteMahnoorshaul
Such an inspirational post.
ReplyDeleteI do get disheartened sometimes when my breathing gets so bad, that I am not sure that I would see an other day. It so happens that I figure out and struggle and position my self so some air flows and I get oxygen. My lungs are too week for me to use any inhaler, or even a nabulizer. I never smoked in my life.
If you have a full time job, hang on to it specially if they give you health insurance.
Has there been any indication why they're getting rid of it? Do they know how many people this will impact on a daily basis? I will keep my fingers crossed that everything works out so you don't have to do 12 hour days. That's really hard on a person and you're just healing up after medical stuff, you don't need to add stress! I like to do the same as you but usually I'm saying "As if I needed the added challenge!"
ReplyDeleteIt's rough--I would be exhausted if I had your schedule. But I think that you will come up with some sort of solution that will benefit you in the long run.
ReplyDeleteThank you Keith... I sometimes feel that most people don't think that way but I am who I am:)
ReplyDeleteThank you LuLu... sometimes all we can do is be frustrated or annoyed until we gain a little understanding:)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Mahnoor... very sweet of you to say:)
ReplyDeleteThank you Munir... I do have a wonderful full time job... I plan to keep it... just trying to figure out how to get home a little earlier in the evening:)
ReplyDeleteThanks Jenn... ahh... just another challenge... I am not great at handling them but they are a part of life.
ReplyDeleteMy company is an awesome place to work and they were basically doing this until a better bus service happened... we have a little bit better but still not enough for me to get home at a reasonable hour :)
Thanks Marcia... I hope I come up with a solution... lol... I can't continue doing 12 hour days... especially in the winter :)
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you'll be losing the shuttle service. I hope you can find a way to manage without it. A twelve hour day sounds much too long.
ReplyDeleteChallenges do slow us down sometimes, but I think we come out stronger for having met them.
Thank you Daisy, I agree... challenges make us stronger... I have had enough for awhile... lol
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