The Speeding Train Of Life

I am off for the next six days, which I am thrilled about.  I will miss work though, I really enjoy talking to the clients and lately I am learning so many things... it's like that at my job.  There is a vast amount of information, nobody and I mean nobody knows everything, so at times it can be overwhelming with everything there is to learn.  Sometimes I think my brain isn't taking in anything and I become frustrated with myself but then I have time periods like this where I am endlessly learning and retaining. It's a good feeling, it makes me know I am doing the right thing by advancing in my career in the near future... I can actually that see what I am doing now as becoming monotonous.  I never thought I would say that ever but I can now because most days are run of the mill... I get a few odd things but mainly it is simple things I already know how to do.

Anyhow, work is on the back burner for the next six days... I will be way to busy with cleaning and getting ready for Valentina's party on Friday/Saturday... those will just be days for her.  Tomorrow is her actual birthday so she and I are going to spend the majority of the day together, first I am taking her to school and for some silly reason she is really excited about that. Second, I am buying her a cheesecake of her choice and Chinese food.  After she's off to bed tomorrow, I plan to post a special blog about her for her big tenth birthday.  I seriously cannot believe that ten years have passed.

Having children really opened my eyes to how time is speeding by quickly and to how much time I have wasted... I want to stop wasting more of my time.   I read a blog this morning from a girl that has not blogged for quite sometime, her posts were about her effort to lose weight and how she felt about herself.  Well this morning when I opened it up, it was her truthful and candor honesty that made me think about how I have been doing the same thing she did.

She got off track, gained a lot of the weight back and so did her husband.... she was writing today as her husband ended up having heart surgery and she realized how she had been ignoring her body and eating whatever she wanted.  To all the excuses she came up with for not exercising... most of what she wrote, she could have been writing about me.  I have this grand plan to workout and I really want to but I keep coming up with excuses for not starting. 

Like her, she is tired of them... so am I, she realizes as do I that  our time is now... if not we could end up where her husband is...a scary thought.  I ended up walking to the mall to catch my bus this morning, it was only fifteen minutes but it was a start.  I ate only healthy today, so today was my first day getting back on track.  It may take me a while to build up my strength to walk longer but I am going to keep working at it and if I fail a day here and there as I am bound to do since I am human.  I will not allow for it to derail me... my dad was only 55 when he had a heart attack... I need to take heed and really start taking care of myself.

I was really failing in the taking care of myself department,, after reading her blog this morning... it opened my eyes that until I am honest with myself I will continue to gain weight.  I have a lot on my plate but I think it will be good for me to be busy... especially in a few weeks where I know things are going to change in my life.... being busy will be good, it might distract me.  I have had a really big decision that I have had to make, I have made it... part of me is relieved... the other part of me is scared.  That's good though right?

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥