The afternoon was much lazier, I spent the time cleaning but mostly relaxing... I feel rejuvenated after having the six days off. I really needed the time and I was able to spend most of the time with my Valentina.
We were able to get in about a thirty minute walk today... I've been working on getting at least thirty minutes in each day... it's not easy as I have so many excuses that I have to get passed. I wish I didn't have so many but I plan to push through them all.
My sister and I were chatting this morning and discussing our upbringing with Ruth ... she brought up the fact that Ruth was abused as a child. When I reminded her that although the three of us had been physically abused by Ruth... not one of us abused our own children.
We have the ability to change how we were brought up... frankly we knew that Ruth was wrong and we all knew that we didn't want to repeat her terrible behavior. Ruth was weak... she still is because she can't admit that she was wrong to treat us as she did.
She will have to live with her behavior and she alone will have to answer for her treatment of us... I'm grateful that I don't have to worry about when or how she will be dealt with... I'm just thankful I'm not her. I have my own things to deal with... as we all do... as much as I feel that I have the right to judge Ruth, I don't though... I only need to worry about my own actions.
When I release myself from judging Ruth or anyone else, it takes a lot of stress out of my life. I know that some people have the need to see other people pay for their behavior, I have no desire for any of this. I don't want her or anyone else to dictate my happiness ... I like that little bit of freedom that I have, these people cannot affect my life anymore...
Yes by releasing ourselves from judging, we set a part of ourselves free...
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you had such a nice time with Valentina. It does release us from a burden when we realize we only have to worry about our own actions. It brings a feeling of freedom.
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Good for you my friend! Nothing can ever hold you back unless you let it and by removing other people's ideals/actions from your own behavior patterns you ensure your own decisions for happiness. Glad you had fun at the park & its nice to hear you're getting into the exercising we've both been talking about for a while now!
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Yea for the walk!! I also agree about passing on bad behaviour. Just because one person cannot act appropriately does not mean that the following will do the same. Keep up this positive outlook and role model to your daughters!
ReplyDeleteThank you Keith, it is great to be free isn't it :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Daisy, isn't it amazing how great things are when you let things go ;)
ReplyDeleteThank you Inge, I love that quote too :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Munir, awe... that is so sweet of you to say:)
ReplyDeleteOf course I will keep Oklahoma in my prayers... what a tragedy :(
Thank you Jenn, sometimes getting that fifteen minutes is hard... it shouldn't be but it is... I will push through:)
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ReplyDeleteThank you Joy... I am trying to give this positive attitude to my children... especially my Valentina:)
ReplyDeleteAndrea is a pretty positive girl, I am a lucky mama :)
I am proud of u! When we are badly hurt we tend to use it as an excuse or a crutch. It's awesome that u r seeing things in a healing way and that u r taking time for u and for Valentina. Much love x
ReplyDeleteAwe thanks Brenda, you are a sweetie;-)
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