Changes For A Lifetime

I took it easy today after I had walked over 5 miles on Friday, my knees have not completely healed from when I injured them in November.  The walking hasn't seemed to bother the knees, it is more if I am going down hill... I am going to look into physio this week just to keep on top of it, so that I don't cause any major issues.  As well my grand total of weight loss for 21 days is 15 pounds so far.... I am so determined to do this once and for all.  I also know that maintaining it will be the hardest part of the weight loss, this is a lifetime change for me.

I have really been enjoying eating healthy, my only issue is with the price of the food.  I think it is ridiculous that sweets and treats cost very little compared to fruits and vegetables. Regardless I bought only good food, I am not letting this weight control me any further for any reason. My body deserves nothing but the best, it certainly looks after me by walking wherever I make it walk and it gets me to work each day and back.  I am blessed and grateful for legs and a body that do so much for me... hence why I am going to look after them to the best of my ability.

I took Valentina out to swim at one of our many lakes in Halifax, due the weather being atrociously hot today... the humidex was at 35C today... that is incredibly hot, I nearly melted at times.  I thought it would be okay to wear a little pair of slip on shoes as I was not doing any great walking today, however; I learned my lesson again... if I am going to walk for more that 5 minutes at a time, I need to wear my sneakers, anything else is torturing my feet, which I have no desire to do this to my feet. 

So she swam for about an hour and a half and then we headed back home, just before we left to get groceries, her big sister Kim called (through the Big Sister/Big Brother program) and offered to take her swimming.  She was so excited and I was happy that she could get in another swim again while I went off to buy groceries.  One, I think whenever you can get a chance to go swimming, go for it and two I would much rather shop on my own than with a child... although my grocery bill was high, it would have had an extra 30-40 dollars with things she felt she needed...

The longer that I eat healthy and exercise, the more I wonder what took me so long to get to this point?  I know it doesn't really matter how I finally got here.. it matters that I am here now and loving the change.  Although it isn't easy, that's okay... I expect this to be one of the hardest and challenging life changes I have ever made.  It's feels good to me that even though this will be a lot of work, I want to do this, I want to make these changes and all the others I have ever talked about.

I remember reading an article one time about how once we made our mind up that the change would come quickly.  I thought, that is a nice pie in sky attitude, I really thought the change would be more of an effort ... but honestly it wasn't...  After not walking any distance for a few years (or longer), I made a mental decision to walk 21 days ago and I have not missed a day since then.  One of those days was a leisure walk on the boardwalk downtown but it was a walk and today was only two short walks, a mile in total probably but I got out and walked.  When I wake up I don't think what bus do I need to catch, I think where can I walk to and can I beat my last time...

I am not in a competition with anyone but me... yes I am in the competition at work but honestly that is really with me, this is mine to win or lose... I plan to win it.  There are other people that are dedicated to losing the weight but I don't see the determination in them that I have within me.  I am willing to do whatever it takes to get myself healthy. I am more tenacious and truthfully I am in this for the long haul...

I really wish that I could make other changes in my life and be happy with them... I guess one thing at a time right?

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥