I had a busy week like everyone else... it seems like time flies by quicker and quicker, first and foremost I am almost feeling 100% physically except for the feeling of having NO stamina. It feels like when I first started losing weight, I started out with 10-15 minute walks... I do have better speed than when I first began but I'm so far behind where I used to be. It's frustrating, however; I also know what I am capable of so all I have to do is start again... now if the weather would cooperate.
I have had one of those reflecting weeks, due to the fact that there were a numerous amount of blogs that I read that seemed to be about one theme... apparently something I needed to hear. You know when you keep hearing the same thing, idea or thought... which then makes you question it? At first I didn't think much about it, however; the next one would come along, then another... by the fourth one I was no longer ignoring the message, I was thinking about it...
It was about letting love into my life again, all I kept thinking was why? I even commented that I honestly didn't think love was worth it ultimately, at least not for me... I remember before 'him' I had been opened to love even though I had been hurt many times... I still believed it was possible. Then when it looked like everything was working out with us, I kept thinking this is why I had to go through all those bad relationships... It had all made sense... But when he and I didn't work out... I couldn't get to the point that I thought love was worth it again...
How could it be? I would have to make sense of us not working out... and nothing made sense. It was then that I decided not to open up to anyone else, I still had him as a friend... I reasoned that was enough... at least I wouldn't have to be hurt again. Then the unthinkable happened, we stopped being friends... almost overnight. I questioned everything and I closed myself off then and there... I didn't even realize that I had done it, not right away... but as time went on, I understood that I did it to protect myself. I could not see how I would ever be able to handle another heart break...
I wrote about how I knew my worth and truthfully I do... also about how I thought I was ready to love again... deep down I didn't believe that, in my heart I knew I was unable to open it... I had been hurt many times in my life but that last one was so much more worse than I ever thought possible.... What I read this week reminded me that of course I am not the only one who has suffered heart ache, nor the only one who has been lied to... or betrayed. Knowing this I was aware that I could no longer use this as an excuse not to be open to love...
I'm not looking for it but I'm not closing off to it either... I understand it may not happen and honestly I am okay either way... but I will be open to love... who knows...
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ReplyDeleteDear Launna,
ReplyDeletebeing open to love is so difficult but can change life, help you see it under a more positive point of view, in my opinion. I cross my fingers for you and for your long walks, I need them too. Thanks a lot for you lovely comments a prayers :)
A big hug!
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You never know, but I hope you find love and love finds you. You deserve it the most!
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Dear Launna, I am pleased to hear you will be open and not close to yourself, give more chances to love, it will come when it needs to come, in some point but you will not be close to it, it is nice to have live in ours lifes ❤️
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Hi Launna!
ReplyDeleteI'm really pleased to read this!
I've got a short break at work and reading this makes me all kinds of happy because what I hear is hope: you're ready to start over- with your walking and with letting love into your life! THAT is the spirit and I pray your desires come to a fruition!!
Xx
My dear Launna, trust me, I have been hurt many times. I have been broken into pieces, I have cried countless of times already and yes there's one point in my life that I've been negative about LOVE. I shut the door of new love but then I realized that hurting is part of LOVING. I remember one time someone told me, "it's better to have love and lost than to never have love at all". I always thought that everything happens for a reason. Just like you I am open to love again, and I won't be closing any doors, we might not know, LOVE is just one step closer :) By the way, I'm happy to know that you feel better now and that your losing weight :) Take care always!
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Dear future I'm ready now.... I love this quote!!! You deserve more chances to love: the true love will come soon in your life Launna!!!!
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I can't imagine what it feels like to be afraid to let love into your life again and to be open to loving someone again. But I'm glad you're getting there.
ReplyDeleteI think you have a good outlook now. Yes, love sometimes hurts, but life can be very empty without it.
ReplyDeleteQue maximo essa postagem mais nunca perca o seu foco,
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Yeah! Being open to love is a good place to be. Love can be painful and sometimes we aren't ready to love again- for a while, but it shows a lot of growth to be in a place where your heart and mind are open to it again. :)
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Wow, i am so happy to read this, you are on a great Way Launna ♡ :)
ReplyDeletelovely Greetings!
Sounds like the place you are in gets better and better,Launna. What's the old saying....never say never. You just never know who God is going to put on the path that will set them on the course to cross your path. You so deserve happiness, Launna. You have had more than your share of heartache and pain...so.... now I am going to start praying for the FULLNESS of happiness in your life. If that means letting someone new into your heart--well, you will "know" it when the time comes. Love to you- Diana
ReplyDeleteIts good to hear you are open to love. Funny, how you think it might be..and then you realize later, hmmm..what was I thinking? Even so, I look back, to those I sort of tossed to the side. Not to say its a long list..just someone in particular. Yes, he was so sweet. Not that tall, but then I'm short, so he was taller than me. Actually, I was totally shocked he found me so fascinating. What was wrong with that fellow? Obviously, he was seeing someone I was not. And..well..the chemistry..just wasn't there. And as they say..opposites attract.(speaking of which.. recently an actress I love to watch in K-dramas is now marrying one of the most stoic actors out there) Or do we always find the ones who are going to be bad to us? So, I know..some refection that is. Yet, wondering what kind of rut am I in? Stay strong. And keep writing!
ReplyDeleteYes. Be open. I have found that when you have yourself together, then the relationships you need will happen.
ReplyDeleteI hope it shows up for you Launna.
ReplyDeleteI think it is only natural to guard your heart after you have been hurt. It makes sense to be cautious and not rush right back into another relationship. Time does help to heal us, though. Wishing you happiness, Launna, whether it is in or out of love.
ReplyDeleteI am glad you have decided to open that door again. If the right person doesn't come along and walk through it -- you're OK with that but if the right person does come along and walk in -- won't you be glad that door wasn't nailed shut. HUGS. Glad you're feeling better. I miss our competition.
ReplyDeleteFather in the Mighty Name of Jesus, may you heal our hearts and help Launna and I find the love that we deserve. May you send us the right man who loves and fears you, -And knows the true meaning of true love, in Jesus Name. AMEN!
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Launna,
ReplyDeleteIt's so great to hear (or read, lol!) that you are much more positive with your perspective on love. Don't look for it!! But keep that heart open to it. Such a good mindset! I'm already having troubles on the "BF" (or lack thereof) front... the new guy hasn't been as great as I thought... but luckily, I've had some SHITTAAAAY relationships lately, so I'm not as devastated. Lol. Going to keep my guard up foreverrrrr until Mr. Right makes me feel alright. Or, I'll be single forever and effing fine with that too.
Thanks for leaving kind thoughts on my blog post from Friday... I need to be more realistic about planning and a career path, like I am with love... but career is more difficult for me to feel so unbounded about...
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DeleteI would message or email you if I was going to be personal!!
you are amazing and this post is so inspiring
ReplyDeleteAm sure with time that you will find love
You can't move forward if you're holding a part of you back, Launna. Love can be extremely painful but it can also be very beautiful. You need to have faith, hope and as foolishly cliche as it sounds, you need to hold on to both and let yourself be happy again, to love and be love again. xx
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Hi sweet Launna,
ReplyDeletethe tittle is adorable.
I'm really happy to read that you are open to love.
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I am at a point, where I don't really believe in love... but I would be happy if you get what you want/need. No matter what it is. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that you are open to love. You just never know what is going to happen, but if you're open, good things will come your way!
ReplyDeleteGod Bless you. It is a wonderful thing that you are open to love as love itself is something that can do wonders for people. I wish you all the best.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy you are open to it. Love always find its way some how and unexpectedly. Hope you are having a great day!
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Don't worry dear Launna, you passed through a lot bit love will find the way at the right time! I'm sure of it!
ReplyDeleteSo if your heart needs time to heal it's right, I think you shouldn't force it, at the right moment and with the right person it will open again to love naturally! :)
About your low stamina, you could try this: a big glass of warm water with lemon juice and a half spoon oh honey in the morning juat after you wake up (before eat or drink everything), it works!;D
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Hi Launna, I know what u mean when u shut urself frm ppl fr not being able to open urself to love.. It has been 4 years and I never went on dates or met guys bcoz i was and still afraid of finding the wrong guy who doesn't understand my emotions.. most men r like that.. I just want to come out of it now so that my life moves ahead coz i need to settle down in my life.. being alone is not good at all.. it makes u miserable.. i just want to be content with what i have and strive for what i dont have going forward...
ReplyDeletei am sure u will gain momentum with ur walks & weight loss... hope u have a great weekend ♥♥
This is a really beautiful post, Launna. I like your attitude of being open to it but not putting any expectations on the outcome. That's the best way to approach most everything, I think.
ReplyDeleteI think this post reflects the happiest, most calm, thoughtful, meaningful and forward looking you have been in a while. It had to happen, and it had to happen when you were ready ...
ReplyDeleteGrab each day with open arms, enjoy your health, and your walking as you get stronger. My dear mum always used to say'you never know what's round the corner' and it's true we don't. Some of it may not be too good but think and act positively because I'm sure a lot of it will be good, and you deserve good.
Enjoy the rest of your week
All the best Jan
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ReplyDeleteAbrir o coração é complicado depois de passar por um grande sofrimento. Não só com namorados, mas amigos e familiares também. Existe uma música de uma banda brasileira chamada Legião Urbana que diz "É preciso amar as pessoas como se não houvesse amanhã". E é isso que eu sigo!
Ótima terça, Launna!
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Oh Launna, I understand you so well. When I was 20 years, I really believed that I cant trust no one anymore, and no...I will never find a good man to be with me. I truly believed in that. I was so sure that I will be one of those old ladys, who are all by them self with 20cats... but now, as age 44..I have been together with my man 10years and yes, Happy. It was not easy at start, you know my past.. but totally worth to surrender.. I really fought with myself to trust love again. It´s worth it dear ;) xoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteHave a great day Launna, and lots of love!!!!! <3!!!!!
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I understand that. It's different, but I went through a stage where I closed my heart completely. We had so many dear friends who up and moved away. Like all of them. Now I don't live near family, so those friends were my temporary family...but once they move away, they're gone. Some come back and visit. Some keep in touch via social media, but for the most part, they're gone. So many pieces of my heart went missing that the only thing I could do was barricade it and try to heal. I'm still struggling out of that stage, but it's important for us to get beyond it.
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I'm glad you aren't closing it off entirely. Of course everyone has the right to step back after their heart is broken, like you have, but I think when you find the right person (you will) then you wont suffer heart break. All that you went through was building you up stronger for the person you are meant to be with. I know it's tough and people can be really cruel, crushing us and making us into a shell of who we once were, but when you find that special someone, you wont feel like you need to make a decision to let love in, it will just happen for you. It will probably come along when you least expect it :) :)
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Launna I believe that love, the real one comes without having to look for it, so leave your heart open, you will see that sooner or later love is coming for you. A big hug dear.
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It is nice that you are open to love, I am still not ready but we both feel better than same time ago I think so. Have a great day dear and thanks you very much for your support! xoxo
ReplyDeleteDear Launna,
ReplyDeleteI'm very happy you can walk again as in the past. It helps a lot. May I ask you to say a prayer for my uncle? He's not improving.
Have a lovely evening :)
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I think you're making a very wise decision, Launna. You're opening to the possibility of love again but with caution. I think it's a sign that your broken heart is starting to heal little by little. I have to say I felt so identified with you when you said that somehow all the previous 'failed' relationships made sense when you were in that special relationship, but when that one didn't work out either suddlenly nothing made sense at all. Not that one nor the previous ones...
ReplyDeleteI understand you're not looking forward to falling in love again right now, but I guess it's a huge step stating that if someone special shows up in the future, you won't immeditaly shut to the possibility of a potential relationship. I'm happy for you, my friend!
oh yes who knows! I wish you can find what you're looking for or maybe life surprise you with a better thing.
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Fall in love is definitly easier than stop loving... It's funny how the world works sometimes... We just have to accept it the way it is and move on.
ReplyDeleteLoved reading your thoughts Launna! ♥
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Oh, I love reading this from a different perspective. I hope you find what... well, I hope you find what you're not looking for.
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Launna since you are only now just feeling 100%, don't feel bad about the lack of stamina. That will be 100% soon as well :)
ReplyDeleteAnd always be open to love - from everyone. Thats the only way to live!
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As you know I can't walk too much in the spring. It's not worth it with the allergies. This morning we had a hard rain and I went walking immediately afterwards. It felt really good to get out. But even though I've been exercising in the house, it was hard to do the full walk. I cut it a little short just because I was tired of walking. I wonder what's up with the stamina? Anyway, glad your almost 100% and lookin' for love. Just kidding. Glad you're open to it! ;-)
ReplyDeletePassando para ti deseja um belo dia e bom final de semana.
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Happy Friday darling!!!
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ReplyDeleteÓtima sexta, Launna!
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Ah, I hope that you find your love one day! It is great to hear that you are open to it. That is so important! I wish you all the best, because you really deserve it Launna! :-) You're a women with a great heart!
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Have an adorable weekend sweet Launna
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These can be difficult waters to navigate. I wish I had answers but I don't.
ReplyDeletevery beautifully written. I think and hope love is always worth it.
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I can totally relate with what you've written. I think love is the most important thing in life; which is why one should always try to be open for it. Like you said, it's not always easy, but in the end it'll be worth it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that eventually you came to this conclusion. This is such a huge step, because being open to the good things in life is the only way to attract them!
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ReplyDeletehmmmmmm, i empathize and dare say I have traveled a similar path and arrived at the same conclusion.
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Sincerely I am not sure how to reply or what type of comment leave because has been so long time since the last time that I has a real date. And the best part that I don´t know but I feel so happy being without any date or something like that all the thing about dates or guys or people overall xD is very stressing for me and causes me anxiety and I prefer be single and alone I realized that I prefer be alone and for me is better without any friend too. But that is for me. For you like always I wish all the best.
ReplyDeleteBeing open to love leaves one definitely vulnerable and can be hard but can also be pretty amazing. It's about risk and taking a chance but only when you are truly ready.
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Open to love - great declaration. Hugs and wishes for a beautiful Sunday, Launna.
ReplyDeleteWe should always be oppend to let love in our life. Even if it makes us happy just for a while, we got to cherrish it for those little moments, I guess they can outweight the bad.
ReplyDeleteIt's wonderful that you're open to love. I've seen it work for so many people in my family, and even though it's never easy, if you make it, it's def. worth it. And you can't know until you try. :)
ReplyDeleteFirst, after being absent from the blogging world for well over a year, let me congratulate you on the huge number of responses your work is receiving! I don't think I've ever had that level of traffic at my blog, so I am giving you a huge High Five and smiling at what you're accomplishing!
ReplyDeleteSecond, my word, Launna, you look lovely! I think the pinky-purple hair is fun and it looks so good with your skin tone. Go, sister!
Third, now I see what you meant with your comment at my blog, that you've been contemplating similar thoughts to my article content. It's interesting, isn't it, how the blog-o-sphere often clicks on a similar topic? I've noticed it over and over through the years, and I take it in the same way you have, that it is a message, a gentle nudge to us from God/Universe/Spirit.
Love is complex, there's no question of that, and I feel and empathize with what you've gone through on a personal level. We've all felt those same feelings, doubts, anger-filled frustrations and declared we would shut down and never want to love again. Who is to say what is best for each of us? Our heart will tell us when it is truly healed enough to venture forth for one more chance at love, or on the other hand, it may tell us it is content to not venture forth for a long while. Whatever the choice, it is okay in the end. Being loving and caring of ourselves is a big step and an equally huge gift to claim. Be well, my friend. <3
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I understand your cautious approach to dating Launna. To quote my favourite character Garth from Wayne's World, 'relationships aren't for the timid'. I think there's definitely a truth to that. However, I'm glad to hear you're open to the prospect of love, as it would be a shame to rule out this possibility for yourself.
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It's a great thought Launna to keep your heart open for love. You never know His plans for us. If you believe in Him; then have faith that someone you deserve will definitely come along your way. Stay Positive and Beautiful as you are- always.
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