Time really gets away from you, before you know it, a week or two has gone by and I begin to wonder how it flew by and I had so little to show for it. I kept planning on blogging and always something would get in the way but when I thought about what that something was, there was nothing that I could put my finger on. It's exactly when I realized I need to schedule time for the things I want to do as well as need to do. I don't know that I will write weekly as I had hoped but I am going to put more effort into it in the future.
I don't want a month or two to go by and wonder what I had accomplished... I lost my focus when I got injured and I used it as an excuse to do nothing. When I think about it, I allowed myself to give up on me... I wallowed in the injury and the pain with wondering why me? How come I had to deal with this pain when I had done everything right by eating healthy and exercising almost daily ... What had I done wrong to deserve this trial? Hadn't I worked hard to get on the right path? Where was reward for putting in the work?
Then a couple of days ago I was talking to a couple of ladies, lamenting the fact that I had to deal with this pain. We then talked about how many of us held on to anger and pain because we wouldn't allow ourselves to forgive others or ourselves. I found myself talking from the heart about how forgiveness is really the only path, no matter what we have had to deal with. I say this as I have dealt with a great deal of painful trials that I could have sat there and allowed it to take over my life... I knew at the age of 15 that forgiveness was the only way I could ever progress in my life... it was when I started forgiving people for pain they inflicted on me, even if they didn't feel they needed the forgiveness.
Yet, I found myself angry and disappointed with having to deal with this trial, especially when I felt I had done nothing to bring it on... This was when I begin to think about people who did nothing to bring on catastrophic health issues or people who have lost loved ones due to freak accidents or severe weather. I begin to think about how blessed I was, I have two healthy children, I have a career I love that allows me to work from home and I have overcome one crazy trial after another... gaining strength and knowledge that helped me to grow. I'm still not sure what I need to learn from this one but I also realized I no longer want to use it as an excuse not to work on becoming a better me.
For the next few days I took the time to ponder the blessings I gained through trials... which made me think about when I was going through each trial and I was absolutely sure there could not be a good enough reason I had to deal with it... yet each time I got through a trial, I was able to clearly see the reason. I have heard people say that there are certain things they could never forgive, mainly because they believe that people only believe that forgiveness should be given to people who admit that have done something that caused pain and that they promise to never do that again... however; there are many people who will never admit to the pain they caused or feel they need forgiveness... forgiveness is for us, more than it is for anyone else.
Whether the pain brought on by others or pain from life trials, forgiveness is always the answer. Otherwise, we are the only ones that held hostage to the pain... never being free. I had forgot this since I had been injured and not able to walk as I loved to do so much... There are other people going through health issues much worse than mine, life threatening ones. Although I understand we shouldn't measure our trials more or less than others... as what we deal with is real for us... however; I think we need to keep everything is perspective. I am sure I will have to remind myself of this in the future, I am hoping it won't take me as long to remember... I am not the only one dealing with pain and I can't use it as an excuse to give up on myself.
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You are so right- forgiveness is really our only way to inner freedom..and I think one of the hardest things for me is forgiving myself sometimes.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you, Launna. It is good to see you back in blogland again...hope to see more of you. xo Diana
I absolutely agree with you! Forgiving is not for others, but for ourselves, this way we are at peace with our senses and can move ahead. Keep inspiring and writing.
ReplyDeleteSo true. And it seems we have to work on it the longest with ourselves. I'm so glad to see you writing. Time certainly can get away from us. Keep writing. Keep blogging!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're back Launna. You always find the best quotes to go along with your post. I often think about how blessed I am when I allow myself to get down in the dumps about anything because there is a world full of people have it really bad. As for writing, that it so true about making time. I don't often have the time but I remind myself of that when I watch something on Netflix that I've made time for that.
ReplyDeleteForgiveness is probably one of the most difficult things to do, particularly, if the hurt keeps coming. But you're right, we have to keep trying because the forgiveness is for our own sense of inner peace and serenity. I continue to love to see you blog about your feelings. You may not realize it, but your words often help others. Hugs...RO
ReplyDeleteTotally agree Launna, forgiveness is really important for ourself. I'm so glad to see you back darling, keep writing!
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Good girl! I'm glad to hear you're able to put things back into perspective again. I know how pain can be. It gets to be so all-consuming, it becomes almost impossible to think beyond it or to find any possible reason for having to endure the suffering. But you've gotten there, lady. Good for you! Now that your mind is prepared to move beyond the pain to do the things you want to do, I hope your body cooperates, too, and the pain diminishes.
ReplyDeleteAs for forgiveness, I couldn't agree more. The blogpost I've already written for this coming Friday is about just that. :)
Take care, and keep smiling.
I'm glad you're back, Launna. I think you are too good. You always think of forgiveness.
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Launna it's great to see you blogging again, as you always write from the heart. I'm glad to hear you've reached a turning point, and feel determined to live your best life. It's not easy to forgive, I know I struggle with it too sometimes. But holding onto a grudge doesn't allow us to have true peace of mind. It's a positive thing that you're able to realise this and forgive others, in order to move past those feelings.
ReplyDeleteLots of love Saba xx
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Sounds like you are thinking positively and realizing that holding on to pain and grudges only hurts us in the end (still- sometimes we need to experience all kinds of emotions to move forward). Here is wishing you less pain and more sunshine and happiness. :)
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Dear Launna, you are blessed with many positive things. Keep thinking of these every day. I really feel that positive thoughts can and do bring healing to us.
ReplyDeleteIt is always good to read your posts ...
Take Care
All the best Jan
I'm so glad you're in a more positive mindset! I didn't really know how to bring it up before as often when people are consumed with pain it's hard to get any point across without sounding pushy, but you are so right. I'm so glad you've done a thinking meditation on everything and learned to forgive, to let go, I'm working on that too and it is for us, not the other person as if we're harboring these problems, it ruins us. I hope you're mind will become clearer and in turn, you're able to channel your pain and depression a lot better. Only up from here girl! Proud of you for coming to that realisation as so many don't xx.
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Blessings......
ReplyDeleteBe careful not to put too much pressure on yourself to do this or that, create a balance where laughter, relaxation and joy is the norm.
peace and blessings.
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Launna... such a wise words. Me too, have been lost and even thought Ihave been trying to write that other blog...each and every time it has been hard. Why? hmm..you said it....need to forgive...too much pain is coming with me..and you too...what if, we chat now and then, you know... just listen. Here for you :) xoxoxox
ReplyDeleteI can imagine your pain and your desire to feel free and have walk like healthy people but still i believe that you are passing through the phase which will end soon because noting will last forever so your pain my dear friend.
ReplyDeletei am amazed by your positive energy and terrific attitude towards life .
Launna i face terrible knee pain each winter (atleast 2 months) and don't take the medicine prescribed by the doctor long ago because they make me sleepy and my children ,husband and house wants me as alert supporter around them,they don't say this but i know they do .
my husband many times annoyed that why don't i take medicines but still i am avoiding it even though i know that result could be horrible for me .
We all are stuck in our situations my friend but i strongly believe that each test that come to us make us stronger as person.
Human brain is main thing which must not be deactive ,all other body parts are just to support him so if sometimes a support fails we should relay and focus on our main most powerful wonder our brain which has all solutions in it it is just how we dig and meditate .
Heartiest best wishes for you perfect health dear!
Yes being thankful for the good that we have in our lives makes a huge difference in gaining perspective of our current situations. It's hard when one is in the thick of problems, but taking time to focus on the postive in our lives makes a huge difference. It has in my life for sure. Happy you have gained this perspective and I hope you continue on this path Launna!
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Tania
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It's always much easier to hold on to anger and bitterness than to let go, Launna. To forgive is easier said than done but hopefully you'll open up your heart and let the pain go. Hugs, my friend. xx
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What a powerful post. My heart goes out to you, and I'm glad you have found a positive way to look at the surprises life throws at us. That's not easy. I'm certainly going to share your post with a few people – it will inspire them, I'm sure.
ReplyDeleteForgiveness is our best gift to ourselves. It's wonderful to read when that gift is given.
ReplyDeleteGreat post, thank you.
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Forgiveness is always the answer... that seriously sounds like a New Years mantra that I need to adopt! (Yes, I am ALREADY planning out my New Year goals and plans!!!) God bless you sweet friend! <3 - http://www.domesticgeekgirl.com
ReplyDeleteVery well said <3
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Well-said, indeed!
ReplyDeleteTime has a way of getting away from us. I have to write lists now, of all the things I need to do, or I end up forgetting, because I get distracted with other things.
It's hard to see the blessings around us when we are in pain, both physically and mentally, but people like you who are strong to the core, are always able to pull themselves out of the hole. Making lemonade out of lemons, basically. <>
ReplyDeleteSo happy to see you writing again Launna. Forgiveness is absolutely for us. With everything occurring in our lives each day, holding on to grudges and pain does us more harm than good. We can let go of that weight and let ourselves know that issues do not mean giving up.
ReplyDeleteAs you know, I've always been fond of keeping journals and writing down thoughts to stay grounded. I was flipping through books from a few years ago and was touched to see some written worries and fears...Looking back now, I find strength in the fact that I have grown so much and moved past things I saw as major issues back then.
Sometimes, no matter how hard we try or how "on track" we are, things happen. I like to remind myself that I can't control all external forces, but I do have more control with internal ones--my state of mind, my outlook, and my motivation to take action.
Thinking of you. <3
Lovely to meet you...I'm glad I found your blog...Love your honesty and heart.
ReplyDeleteThe thing about writing a blog is that it leaves a record. My blog has turned into a journal of sorts. When I look back, I have an idea of where I was and what I was doing at any time over the last 12 years.
ReplyDeleteSo well written! The forgiveness is very important.
ReplyDeleteIt took me a long time to know it, but yeah forgiveness is for our own peace of mind. We can't let someone rent a place in our heart like that. Nope!! Keep writing Launna dear.
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A physical injury really can knock us for a loop (emotionally as well as physically). I think it's normal...then we heal (emotionally and physically, hopefully) and move forward. Part of life's continuous ups and downs, I think. :)
ReplyDeleteIt is so much trueness in your Words! Also the Quotes are great.
ReplyDeletelovely Greetings Launna <3
So glad to have you back Launna. I totally understand where you're coming from. Forgiveness is the most difficult thing to do and like I always say it's for your benefit not for the one who wronged you. We're all hanging in there Launna. Good to hear from you
ReplyDeleteForgiveness is one of the things that most people struggle with but once one is able to. It becomes easy to let go. I hope your physical pain heals. It is always good to read one of your letters.
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I'm so sorry for your pain Launna, and I think your anger is totally comprensible!
ReplyDeleteYou're a human being, don't forget it, so you cannot forgive so easily, it's normal. And I think that you tried so hard to do it that maybe you've just buried your anger more than leave it, and not it's resurfacing in some way....
I think that only time can heal those kind of wounds, but you can definitely see how far you id just on your own!And this is definitely a great gain for you, because now you know your strenght!
Don't overthink and take care, dear!
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S
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I read somewhere that people refuse to forgive because they think/feel that something is owed them, and it's only when they write off this debt/expectation that forgiveness can take place.
ReplyDeleteI think there's something to this.
Happy Halloween Launna <3
ReplyDeleteSe não me engano, aqui no Brasil a marca Suave é nova no mercado. Estou adorando os desodorantes! ;)
ReplyDeletePerdoar não é fácil. Mas é necessário! Faz bem para nós mesmos, sabe?! Launna, sempre me parece que você está preocupada em excesso com as coisas. Ninguém tem uma vida perfeita! Então o jeito é focar no que te faz bem. Está na hora de você relaxar um pouco. O que acha?
Ótima terça!
Beijo! ^^
Forgiveness is not a favour to those who offend us but a favour to ourselves. We set ourselves free from bondage when we forgive. True words Launna...So sorry for the pain but always remember that purpose is born out of pain!.. God bless you love
ReplyDeleteDon't be too tough on you. While one does have to make time for certain things, it's also totally okay to take a break!
ReplyDeleteThank you for being so supportive of my most recent posts. I've been so busy lately, my blogger life has majorly slowed down. :o(
Looking forward to your next post!!
With Love & Style,
♥ Amber
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Proud of you, we get off track sometimes but true strength shows us getting back on it or getting back up when knocked down.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes the Erdem collection, I love that blazer so much! Reminds me of the refined J.Crew ones I have, I am soooo curious to the quality!
Happy Friday Launna darling!
ReplyDeletexo Paola
Expressyourself
Hope your week has been going well. Sending positive thoughts your way. :)
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Dearest Launna,
ReplyDeleteI hope things are going well for you after your recent update. Thanks so much for your sweet comment on my blog. I hope you have a lovely weekend ahead and manage to escape the cold.
Lots of love Saba xx
www.trulymadlydeeplyfashion.blogspot.com
Hi launna.. 💋😗😗 I forgot to thankful too launna. Such as you have two healthy children, work at home. I am forget that I have a cute son, still young and healthy body.
ReplyDeleteforgiveness is not easy but it's make us feel better. Some time we said I have forgiveness but some time our brain recall the pain again and we feel hurt. Thats lets time that make us feel ok. Hope you have lovely and happy weekend launna.
Everything feels so much better with expressing how we feel. Hopefully a time will come when happiness will reign supreme. Hang in there and warm greetings!
ReplyDeleteDear Launna,
ReplyDeleteIt is a pleasure you come back! I love to read your posts cos they inspire to me a lot. Welcome dear.
Kss a lot
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Hello darling,
ReplyDeletewell-said!
After a long time here I am back!
Have a nice week-end
Hugs
Dili
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Launna! Aquele esmalte é muito bonito. Agora quero testar outras tonalidades daquela marca! ;D
ReplyDeleteÓtima segunda!
Beijo! ^^
Hi Launna, I hope you're doing ok xx.
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Just peeking in to say hello and to offer up some HUGE Hugs...RO
ReplyDeleteIt's nice to hear you are making time for blogging if it helps you, and that you are coming up with new ways to look at the trials you are facing. It's so hard in something unpleasant to see any good in it, but it's only afterwards at the end that we can look back and see why it happened. Even if it was a sucky thing to happen, there are good things that can come from bad!
ReplyDeleteHope you are having a lovely weekend! We are getting our family Santa photo done tomorrow, gotta get a move on with my Christmas cards, haha! :)
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Dearest Launna, what you said about forgiveness resonated with me. I've had so many issues on forgiveness in the past. I thought it was about the fact that I found it difficult to forgive those who wronged be. But it was more about how I couldn't forgive myself for my own shortcomings. I learned that it is so much more difficult to forgive ourselves than it is to forgive others. Maybe because we know ourselves better than other people and because we are very much more aware of our own weaknesses. Yet I learned that we also need to be more compassionate towards ourselves, accepting the fact that we are not perfect, and also being aware that even if we did get back up, our own human limitations can still make us falter in the trials we may face in the future. I'll share with you this short prayer to God that has helped me a lot in learning to be more compassionate towards myself: "You know me, and You love me."
ReplyDeleteLove and blessings to you, dear Launna. May the Lord grant you His peace. ❤💕
It's about making time indeed. Saying "I have no time" is a lame excuse.
ReplyDeleteHave a great start of the week Launna!
ReplyDeleteKisses, Paola.
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Launna! É a primeira vez que testo os produtos daquela marca. Fiquei muito surpreendida com a máscara de cabelo! Achei realmente maravilhosa! ;D
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Beijo! ^^
Ciao Launna, have a lovely day!
ReplyDeleteKisses, Paola.
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I love your attitude! Indeed, life will keep bringing us down but we must get back up.
ReplyDeleteHope your injury is better now :-)
Oh Launna your thoughts always get me. It is so hard for many people to reach that deep level of reflection and maturity when going through tough times. I completely understand your frustration because I feel indetified in some way. It has nothing to do with health, though. It has more to do with relationships and a heartbreak. I wondered the exact same thing "why me?" "how did i cause this if I've done nothing but loving unconditionally to the other person?", "why does real, pure and transparent love not get rewarded?" I wish I could've come up with your conclusion sooner. I mean, that forgiveness is the answer. It would've saved me a lot of repressed anger and sadness and pain.
ReplyDeleteBut I'm glad you're seeing the answer and you're seeing that despite you facing these obstacles, you're still a blessed person for many reasons. I'm sure one day in the future you'll understand why you're going through this right now. And if anything, it will make you stronger. That's what tests are like -unexpected, hard, sometimes unfair. What matters is how we deal with them. <3
xx
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It's so hard to see past yourself or the moment where you're in intense pain ALL THE TIME. =) I deal with chronic sinusitis, which means if I contract a common cold, I'm likely to end up out of commission a minimum of two weeks, and more likely a month or two. It's a condition that came on in my late twenties and put me on bed rest for years. Three of them. Miserable ones. I remember wondering if this was it, if I'd ever be healthy again, and how was it possible that I could be robbed of my health and vitality at such a young age. Yes, the pity party, but it's impossible to avoid, right? Still, I devoted myself to the lord and he lifted me out of that situation where I had no power to lift myself. I had to be more patient with myself and take things at a different pace. As much as it stank/stinks, there was a valuable lesson to be learned from the experience that I now apply not only to myself, but all those I come in contact with. Trials stink until we understand the reason behind them. Even then they usually stink, but become bearable. Wishing you a hasty recover and continued patience through the healing.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel a little better, Launna, I agree with you that we have to schedule time for the things we really want to do...
ReplyDeleteBaci!
Launna, I just wanted to check in with you and find out how you've been lately? I hope you've been well, and things are getting better for you.
ReplyDeleteHave a lovely weekend.
Lots of love Saba xx
www.trulymadlydeeplyfashion.blogspot.com
Launna! Aquele esmalte é realmente muito bonito. Em breve lanço a resenha dele! ;)
ReplyDeleteÓtimo domingo!
Beijo! ^^
*HUGS* Launna! Hope you have a good Thanksgiving! And hope you write another post soon!! Stay golden!
ReplyDeleteWith Love & Style,
♥ Amber
ALL THE AMBIENCE
Launna! Estou amando testar aquele desodorante. Logo ele acaba, de tanto que estou usando! ;D
ReplyDeleteÓtima terça!
Beijo! ^^
Thinking of you. Hope all is well!
ReplyDeleteHappy and healthy Thanksgiving to you!
~Jess
I'm new to your blog but I'm already in love. Congratulations with your weight loss, that's so incredible! I'm trying to be positive and take more care of myself and posts like this are perfect! Forgiveness is one of the best things we can do for both someone else and ourself, it's the only way to really live life and be happy.
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Just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy thanksgiving if you celebrate it in Canada!
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Living with chronic pain is hard...and don't I know it. Coming to peace with the fact I will probably have to deal with severe pain for the rest of my life wasn't easy, but like yourself I try to count my blessings- and that does help.
ReplyDeleteWe mustn't let pain trap us...I know it's easier said than done. Changing our mindset doesn't help with the pain as such, but the right kind of approach, it helps us to bear it - at least mentally. That's at least what I discovered. I try to find things that make me happy and that I can do despite my health issues.
I wish you all the best!
I completely agree. Although it's not always easy, forgiving people is sometimes necessary to move on. Forgive but don't forget. 💖
ReplyDeleteI hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving, and I hope your injury heals more and more each day. Feel better soon. 💖
xo, Sarah
Hustla, baby.
Hi Launna. How are you? I think about you often, and always hope you're well. The weather is really cold here in London (by my standards anyway). I struggle with winter and I remember you find it hard too. I hope the weather is not too bad in your town. The festive season is approaching soon, and I hope it will be a happy time for you.
ReplyDeleteLots of love Saba xx
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Just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy Tuesday, Launna!
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